does this email sound mean?

[voodoobarbie]

is this email mean or sumthin? it seems to have pissed my bf off when it was supposed to be sweet

 

 

 

"Greg"

 

I hope its not inappropriate for me to email you, because of our break. If so, then you don't have to read any of this. I only thought since we talked on yahoo, that it was ok for me to email. If not, tell me the next time we talk.

 

The comments you made about "Bryan", and about any other guy I would seek to talk to online, they bothered me. Not that I'm angry at you for saying them, but I need you to know they aren't true! This isn't to make me lose interest in you. I love you very very very much. And I don't want to hurt you. I want us to be happy together again. So, my main fear is really that you're thinking I'm doing things behind your back, so you will start to do things behind mine. Please, please don't. I have been faithful to you, and I will continue to be. You are my boyfriend. I am your girlfriend. I don't want to be with anyone else.

 

Also: I feel the need to yet again explain what's going on in my head through this whole thing. If I say anything that you think isn't accurate, don't be upset. Im simply trying to let you know how I feel.

 

I agree with the things you have said about me having way too much free time. This has proven itself to be unhealthy for us. I can't be happy with you until I can be happy alone. I know its driving you crazy, sweetie. But I promise I didn't mean for it to be this way. I just want to love you, and be loved. I'm sorry.

 

Next thing is, I need to know that you care about me. From several people (online and family) I have heard opinions that you're probably trying to let me down easy and I'm not seeing it. I want to be fair to you, so I'm stepping away and you are free to have time without me in your life to see if you need me in it. I know you need time alone. Or rather Im starting to learn that you do. And I won't pretend that knowing you don't want to talk to me that often isn't hurtful. Cause it is. I put you at the very top of everything. You are such a wonderful guy and I don't like imagining myself without you. It just seems like to me, I don't even fall on your list of priorities. At least not very high. So, this is your chance to see if you want to get rid of me and make time for the more important things. i.e., work, games, computer. (Rereading this that sounded very sarcastic to me. It wasn't mean to be. I just know those are important to you) This isn't a test, though. If we aren't meant to be with each other, then we just aren't. I hope we can decide what we want soon. I'm afraid that when this is over one of us is going to be saying we've made a huge mistake, and we don't belong together.

 

Please know that I love you and I'm missing you. I hope this week is a good one for you. You don't have to worry about me stressing you. You have something that should be quite simple to figure out.

 

Need me? Don't need me?

Love me? Don't love me?

Want me in your life? Don't want me in it?

 

If your life is better with me in it, then wonderful! If it isn't, teach me how to let go of you and let you find someone who can make you as happy as you deserve to be.

 

Love,

"Alice"

[dyermaker]

It wasn't mean, nor was it neccesarily sweet. It might piss one off though, paticularly if you called him on something--I can't comment because I have no background information. What happened?

[voodoobarbie]

we decided to take a break because he thought we were talking too much. then he acted like he was going crazy the first day cause he thought i was talking to other guys, which i wasn't. im giving him a chance to see if he really wants me in his life because it seems like he always has something else he wants to do other than talk to me and it makes me feel bad. so were taking a break. and he hasnt called since i emailed him so i think hes mad at me. he was callin before.