mizundastud Posted March 2, 2010 Share Posted March 2, 2010 I'm am a single mom in her early twenties with a stack of problems. First off I love my baby to death I'm just super stressed because there are so many things that I want to do in life and can't because I get no help. I have no home, job, or friends. If you read over any of my other threads you know that I'm going through a terrible break up which has me depressed and really evaluating my life. I'm currently staying with my aunt who raised me but I have to be out in a week. Last week me and her had an argument and she said to me "I'm a F**k up, and I'm such a f**ked up individual I can't even keep a man" amongst other things but those really stuck out. She also called me a hoe in which also hurt me because i was a very premiscuis (misspelled) teenager and lately I've been doin a lot of reflecting about my mistakes and my past of letting men use me and trying to find out the reasons why and move on. When I was younger I thought that I just liked sex but now that I'm an adult I realized that besides sex being a pleasurable feeling I aslo liked the feeling of being connected to someone else and having a mans attention. I never felt liked I had a bond or closeness with anyone who understands me all my life. My mother passed when I was very young and me and my aunt not having a good relationship made me long for that mother-daughter closeness. So now I'm sitting here tryna figure out what to do with my life. I plan on moving out of state to try and have a new beginning. It just seems that as I put the plan together I keep running into obstacles. My childs father doesn't help me, my family doesn't help me and when I ask I just open up the door for more ridicule and people feeling like they can disrespect me because I ask for help so I'd rather do it on my own. Anytime I think someone is my friend they seem to betray me and my ex was my best friend now I don't have him. Sometimes I just wanna call and beg for him to come back but he moved on with his life. I just don't know anymore I really don't like complaing but my baby is all I have and I want to give her the best its just so hard dealing with stress and not having no help or anyone to turn to. Link to post Share on other sites
Green Posted March 2, 2010 Share Posted March 2, 2010 Yeah you have it bad. So do I. I feel pretty alone lately too. You're no alone though. We all struggle so hard to make our way in this world. Every once in awhile I do find myself laughing or enjoying a dance ect. You have to live life in the present. You're babies dady legaly has to help you out. So make sure that you see a lawyer or what ever to get help. I realize maybe this guy is a deadbeat. You're not alone. The best thing you can do for your baby is be there for her, and not give up on a good life for yourself. Link to post Share on other sites
Hot Carl Posted March 2, 2010 Share Posted March 2, 2010 So do I. I feel pretty alone lately too. You feel alone?! You have a girlfriend. It's a bad state to be in if you're feeling lonely while you live with someone. Link to post Share on other sites
Green Posted March 2, 2010 Share Posted March 2, 2010 You feel alone?! You have a girlfriend. It's a bad state to be in if you're feeling lonely while you live with someone. I'm glad I have her. But still times are tough right now. Link to post Share on other sites
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