confused_pjl Posted March 2, 2010 Share Posted March 2, 2010 Today is 3 weeks of NC for me and my Ex. This emotional roller coaster is killing me. I was hurt and sad the 2 weeks I knew she was away on a business trip because I knew she wasn't with the "new" guy she left me for. She got home yesterday and I broke down. Just the thought of her coming home to him, missing him, wanting him and taking him. That should have been me. I cried most of the day and was emotionally drained. Even this morning I feel super drained. NC is HARD. I still have no desire to contact, nor do I want a second chance. Its just hard dealing with the fact that I will never talk to her again and the fact that she never wants to talk to me again. I feel like I'm taking all the right steps. As soon as I found out she left me fore this new guy I..... - Dropped of her last box of crap to her new place while she was at work. - Got my own cell phone (my # was part of her plan) - Blocked her on FB, IM, etc - Removed all the pictures of her I have around and things that remind me of her - I also had all my family and friends remove her from FB and IM. I had family and friends telling me what they were seeing on FB which wasn't helping me with NC. I felt like I was getting better until yesterday. Not only was I emotional over the fact that I knew she was coming home to him, but one of the new guys ex's added me to IM. I kind of know this girl as we used to work at the same place. She started some small talk and then came out with the big question "are you still with JXXX". I replied "no". She then said "oh, I was wondering because I saw her out with my ex, weird". That killed me. Knowing that they are out flaunting themselves around town now. I hope I never see them together, it will KILL me. I'm still having a hard time accepting the fact that she did this to me. I'm trying to move on and be strong. I'm trying to be positive, optimistic and believe that everything happens for a reason but it is ssssoooooooooo HARD. I'm also having a hard time trying to focus my energy on good things happening to me instead of bad things happening to them. I just hope that KARMA comes around to kick them in the teeth just as quickly as she kicked me in the teeth. I still love my ex and miss her very much. Its hard trying to forget about and convince myself that I should hate her right now. The Best revenge is MASSIVE success! Link to post Share on other sites
Rearden Metal Posted March 2, 2010 Share Posted March 2, 2010 That Suuuuuuuuuuuuuucks. But the only thing that will make you feel better is time, and then a new relationship. Just gotta suck it up and be all about YOU from here on out. Link to post Share on other sites
ms.ac Posted March 2, 2010 Share Posted March 2, 2010 I was in the same exact place as you.. He left me for someone else.. it crushed me.. he threw it in my face.. It got worse before it got better... there are still days where i cry.. its been over 3 months since I last saw him. we were together for almost 5 years and finally i am ok... and he has called me 3 times in the last month... he was so mean said he never wanted anything to do with me again.. made me feel like i was horrible when i did nothing wrong.. and now he is calling me.. the best revenge is to get on with your life.. I know that my ex made a huge mistake.. and now I hope he is realizing it.. i finally talked to him for the first time since 2 days ago and i acted like i was the happiest i have ever been.. give it time.. you are stronger than you know.. i know i am stronger than i ever thought i was... it has made me a better stronger person ... hang in there Link to post Share on other sites
Rearden Metal Posted March 2, 2010 Share Posted March 2, 2010 I was in the same exact place as you.. He left me for someone else.. it crushed me.. he threw it in my face.. It got worse before it got better... there are still days where i cry.. its been over 3 months since I last saw him. we were together for almost 5 years and finally i am ok... and he has called me 3 times in the last month... he was so mean said he never wanted anything to do with me again.. made me feel like i was horrible when i did nothing wrong.. and now he is calling me.. the best revenge is to get on with your life.. I know that my ex made a huge mistake.. and now I hope he is realizing it.. i finally talked to him for the first time since 2 days ago and i acted like i was the happiest i have ever been.. give it time.. you are stronger than you know.. i know i am stronger than i ever thought i was... it has made me a better stronger person ... hang in there you GO, girl!!! Link to post Share on other sites
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