My update

[Just a stone's throw]

BIG HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGG xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

 

Thanks, GS!! You too, we can all use them!

 

Just had a good workout that got my head back in order for the day!!

[Getting_stronger]

Hmmm that sounds healthier than my strategy- eat my weight in chocolate

[Just a stone's throw]

I work out to eat....it's that or I'd be 300#!!

[Heather1]

5 weeks today!!!!!

 

Let me try to pinpoint my "feelings.". I did have that slip over a week ago, it was a short note telling him I was thinking about him, that's all. But 5 weeks of no communication!!

 

1). Glad he didn't reply

2). Not wanting "what we had" anymore.

3). Proud of myself for cutting ties the second I felt used, I don't want that...it's the worst feeling & why I wanted to stop.

4). No smoke signals to his friends, I dropped off the planet to him & he's had no idea of my wherabouts (he might not care anyway)

5) not wondering what he's thinking so much. Have hours where I don't think about him.

6). I don't even want to see or hear from him......maybe that should have been #1?

7). Feeling a lot more detached, no thoughts on getting him back.

 

Anyway, don't feel completely over it, but I'd rather be here than where I was a few weeks ago. I didn't think there'd ever come a day when I didn't want to see him ever again. I'm SO glad I did this!!! Being stung along & trying to act cool about it sucked!! I had no control!!

 

My next crisis might be if he ever does contact me. I guess i need a plan for that, but I doubt it will happen. I'm feeling pretty good about the whole thing. I'm going to have to wait until the school year's over to make decisions on my M.

[ladydesigner]

My next crisis might be if he ever does contact me. I guess i need a plan for that, but I doubt it will happen. I'm feeling pretty good about the whole thing. I'm going to have to wait until the school year's over to make decisions on my M.

 

This is mine right now. While I don't think he would ever contact me again. I'm not sure how I will feel if he does. I know the right thing to do is not respond, better said than done though. I think my XOM thinks I hate him. I deleted him as a contact from my LinkedIn account 2 months ago and my last words to him were that I would always give him a good reference if he needed one (I was his manager when we worked together:o). I'm sure he will NEVER put me down as a reference again after the LinkedIn deletion. I did that so that he could not contact me through that device, especially since he used LinkedIn to contact me after I initiated the NC.

 

Oh well, it sounds like you are doing fabulous Heather!!!!

[Heather1]

I'm banking on him not contacting me....if he didn't reply over a week ago, I doubt he'll have some change of heart.

 

An interesting thing happened the past few days though. His family has a huge even at my work every year, where I have to stare @ his name all over the place @ work. This event takes place next week, and I saw the name w/ no advertising yet. I have most of the days off work, so I don't need to worry about running into him those days. Well yesterday I was talking to a close family friend of his & he was surprised it was under his name because he didn't think they were sponsoring this year. I checked w/ my boss, and sure enough they kept the name of the event out of tradition. I talked him into changing the name of the event....HHHHOOOOOORRRRRAAYYYYY!!! Saves me 2 weeks of going into work & having to look at his friggin name!!!!!!!

 

I guess I'd just suck it up if I had to, but I'm glad to be free of the constant reminder & having to say his name w/ every friggin phone call!!!

 

Such a small thing, but it'll help me a lot. It's also our last connection severed, so glad for that.

 

Taking off for a few days w/ one of my boys. All my best to you all this weekend!!! You've all helped me immensely!!!!!