NC success?

[Summerwind]

I wasn't sure if I should post this here but I have a weird situation. It's silly and embarassing but after reading the posts I can see there are compassionate souls here. I was involved very shortly in sort of an EA with someone I met online. I say sort of because a lot of our conversation was based on lust not really friendly talk. It became intense - emotional/sexual talk within a short period of time. We saw each others pics and were very physically attracted to each other. I am married. He is not. He came to his senses and decided it wouldn't be smart to keep talking to a married woman. That was about a week ago. In a way I was relieved because I knew it was wrong but part of me was hurt from rejection. That sounds insane. Although I only talked to him a few weeks online only - no phone or in person contact, I became attached and addicted to our conversations. Since then I have sent him 2 e-mails and he has not returned them. So I guess I was forced into NC for my own good. I just feel so stupid now. I am ashamed of all the things I told the OM if you even want to call him that considering we never met in person. I mostly feel stupid for still missing this guy that I hardly know. I think about him way more than I should. I am not contacting him anymore. In fact, I never memorized his contact information so I deleted him from my contact list so I CAN'T contact him. I don't trust my stupidity at the moment and did not want to appear as a stalker! Am I a screwed up insane woman or is this in anyway normal.? If it is normal how long does it take NC to actually work? Will there be a day when he is just a faint memory? Is it because he ended it and not me? Is it pride? I'm sorry if I sound like a complete fool but I really feel like one now. The truth is I know he doesn't belong in my life so eventually I would have to get away from him. I guess I just planned on being the one to intiate NC.

[lostsunsets]

Allow me to first say. "Your poor husband". Since your only concern seems be for an electronic partner you never met, and the man who is by your side doesn't get so much as a mention. You want to get over this imaginary OM? Lets start by talking about some of the good qualities your husband has. Good provider, hard worker, good father, good listener, supportive, encouraging, FAITHFUL, a husband you can be proud of? Does he have any of these? If so, why don't you focus on them. Right now you are thinking about someone that for all intense purposes does not exist. I wonder if this other guy would be as attracted to you when you wake up in the morning with bad hair and bad breath, maybe a little thankless and bitchy. Do you ever give thanks for the man you have? Why don't you send him some nasty e-mails or a provocative picture or two, of he could look forward to when he gets home. In other words. TRY WORKING ON YOUR MARRIAGE INSTEAD OF YOUR IMAGINATION.

[Bryanp]

How would you feel if your husband was doing to you what you have been doing to him with an online person?