I'm sooo sad without him

[I broke my own heart]

HELP!!!!!!!!!

 

I want to tell a short story of happiness and then sadly grief.

 

i met a guy (12) years my junior. Beautiful, kind, generous. We were lovers inside of a week, and living togeather inside of 3 weeks. HAPPILY. I know , I know it had disater written all over it from the beginning. Just try to bear with me.

 

We "played house" very nicely. The sex was regular AND awesome. Spending all of my free time with him was all that I wanted to do.

 

Gradually (week 6 or 7) he began to "work" longer hours. He doesnt have a "conventional job. He's in the pharmaceutical business. Anyways..I tried to be understanding, and I was to a certain extent. At the end of week 8 I turned 35. WHOO HOO! I assumed, based upon the gifts and Very special treatment that I had received from the beginning that my guy would make this birthday the best I ever had. Long story short, he went to "work" and I didnt see him until the next morning.

 

I gave him the silent treatment for about 4 days, waiting for him to kiss my ass basically. Make it up to me, ya know. Apologize or something...nothing!

 

I got over it...but not really. We never even talked about it...or anything that bothered me after that. I held it in...afraid to argue.

 

that was really hard. So after countless long lonely nights and lots of superficial conversation, I decided that after 2 1/2 months, that it would be better to end it now rather than wait for the storm to blow in later.

 

Yay for me! When I said that it wasnt working out and I felt that we should go our seperate ways..he said...OKAY. I was at work while he moved EVERYTHING that he owned out (including the 6 dogs) and left the house clean and spotless.

 

that was 2 weeks ago exactly. Not a day has gone by that I havent sobbed... I miss him sooooo much. I want him back.

 

So I called, finally. I wanted to see how he felt. Before I could get 2 words out, he was saying how much he missed me. I invited him over...to talk...he never showed. I waited a week and called again....we spoke briefly...and from that conversation...Even though he was cordial, it didnt sound like he had been missing me, he wasnt losing any sleep, missing work, or going through any of what I've been going through.

 

So now what??????

Should I keep calling?????

Let it go???? How do I do that?????

[Prettyangel]

RED FLAG! Anything that goes to fast and is to good to be true, believe that it is! No healthy relationshp evolves this fast. It takes time to get to know a person.

 

I say move on and learn from your mistakes.

What is going with you that you miss someone who does not want you in his life? Why are you so desperate ? Why do you need anyone to be happy and feel good about you?

 

Ask yourself some of these questions.

No you should not call! If he has any interest in you, he will call.

Bless You(hug)