pedro1 Posted May 23, 2010 Share Posted May 23, 2010 Why does it hurt do much, just when you think your doing good that all changes in a second. While I'm going on this roller coaster ride she's just fine hanging out with her family and friends, which were I thought of as mine her family that is. I Dont have any family left but my mom and she's just bitter and tells me to get over it, I would if I knew how, I think we all would. Man 12 years of investment ending in one day ( I know it didn't end in a day but she changed in a day against me) I now what we did wrong, I no we should of worked on it , i no alot of things now, but I don't want yo feel this way anymore. I feel for everyone out there that is going through this with kids, I love being with them but I hate to have to she the stbx every Sunday. I wish there was a spot she could drop them off without seeing her but there isn't. Every week she naggs at me for something like bills, kids, house (stuff I think she makes up), this Sunday she came in the house and grabed the Boys bag turned and walked out, kind of through me for a loop. I was already for a chewing then she says nothing no hi, bye nothing which is great just wasn't expecting that. Thanks for listening to me vent. Link to post Share on other sites
hopesndreams Posted May 23, 2010 Share Posted May 23, 2010 It sounds as though she's peeved you're not groveling at her feet anymore. Maybe things aren't working out with the "invisible" OM. Whatever is bothering her should be of no concern to you, not anymore. this Sunday she came in the house and grabed the Boys bag turned and walked out, Link to post Share on other sites
aeren944 Posted May 24, 2010 Share Posted May 24, 2010 I know exactly how you feel. Yesterday was the day my ex came and picked up the kids... after she left, I spent an hour crying on the floor and screaming the exact title of your post... After that, I smoked some weed, and that (plus the comedown from the crying) seemed to help me even out. I was able to think objectively for the first time since this has happened. I remembered who I used to be, and how I should get that back. I know it hurts so bad right now, trust me. It's the complete agony of it... the fact that it doesn't seem to go away. Just know that there are TONS of other people feeling the same thing, and they all have days like this... they will pass, and there will be a better day... maybe soon, maybe in a week, but it WILL come. Grab it when it does, and love it, cherish it, and learn while the good days are here. It's like reloading your gun before you're forced out into the fray again. For these bad days, just exist how you can. Know that it will happen, accept it, and accept whatever you need to do to get by. Now is not the time to beat yourself down. Do what you have to do get to that good day that's in the future. Trust me, I know EXACTLY how you feel... I know. You WILL have a good day soon. Link to post Share on other sites
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