Justified Cold Feet?

[StrangeCanine]

I am in love but I have a lot of issues, I often find myself thinking that my woman would be better off without me. I want to marry her but at the same time I think that would be bad for her.

 

I am 22, male, I work far away from my love and I call home everyday and talk to her, I often compliment her and have completely open conversations. We support each other even in the darkest of endeavors but I kinda think that might be my problem, I am not normal and I think she could do much better than me. I am kinda sick, I have been with over a hundred partners in bed that isn't even bragging because I am ashamed of that, while she has been pretty much the normal one and have only had less than five. I am drawing her more and more into my world and it frightens me because I am broken from my world and I don't want her to be like me but at the same time I am selfish and enjoy the fact that I can honestly share my entire world with my baby and know she loves me anyway I don't think any other person will ever love me this way but do I even deserved to be loved like that?

 

I am scared because I am damaged good with a long streak of things that are wrong with me and yet she stays. I don't know if I am doing her a justice by being with her.

 

Should I be feeling this way? I feel guilty for being loved by someone who knows the full me.

[iv.leaf.klover]

I think that she knows you for who you are and stays, I think that she can make her own decisions on who she wants to be with.

 

I think that you should probably talk to someone about your feelings of "Not being good enough" because in the long run it will ruin your relationship with someone whom you really love.

 

It's not everyday you find someone who will take you for who you are - past and everything, sounds like you found a great person to be with. I think you should respect her opinion of you and just give her that same love and respect in return. YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH.