This Hurts Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 Are you sh*tting me? I felt I closed the biggest chapter of my life when I changed my number on May 30th. She wouldn't be able to contact me through there, and she wouldn't be able to get my number, since we don't have mutual friends. None of her friends or family members have my number anymore. I literally thought there was a huge chance we would NEVER speak again, for the rest of our lives. I just checked an old email and there was an email in there from her. I REALLY didn't expect that from her. She sent the email a couple of days AFTER I changed my number, June 1st, just a few days ago. This is what it said: "I miss you too much. I know that from here, it slowly divides and i become just a blur inside myself I actually want to puke, thinking of you right now. Where did I go wrong? I am yours no matter what I say or do" As for what I feel, nothing really except angry that she contacted me. I don't miss her. I don't want her. I'm tired of her trying to play with my emotions, one day rejecting me, and the next acting like this. I know she's bipolar, and this is part of her behavior. But I have stuck with this girl for years, letting her cheat on me, lie to me, all to stick with her because I told myself to love her unconditionally and be patient with her and her disorder, and where has it gotten me? Nowhere! Hell no I'm not going back. Even though there are some hard aspects of being without her, I've been doing so good lately, and I am not letting her screw this up for me. Link to post Share on other sites
Exit Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 I haven't reach much of your back-story so I dunno what this girl is like, but good for you. Sounds like you know what it best for yourself. It's great to have unconditional love for someone but you need to have it for yourself as well and not let a relationship damage you. If she really wants you back she'd do something more than email, so she probably just wanted to see if you would respond. Link to post Share on other sites
D-Lish Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 It's a temporary shock, and it will pass. It's actually kind of liberating to get an e-mail like this! Link to post Share on other sites
whichwayisup Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 As for what I feel, nothing really except angry that she contacted me. One thing, you could have just deleted the email reading it. Anyway, you didn't break NC, so that's good! Her loss, not yours. Link to post Share on other sites
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