Update

[LK30]

Hi LS.

 

I haven't been on the site for a month - not sure if that's a good thing! Funnily enough I have had one of those weekends where I have thought about my ex more than usual. We split at start of Feb, so that's about 4 months ago and I took it really bad, but altho I don't think I'm over it I do feel a little better.

 

Some people might argue I'm not over her, mainly as I still think about her (a little) every day. Is this natural? It's not something I want to be doing but it must just be a routine. I do still miss her, and as she has a common car I often think it might be her approaching me on the roads and my heart does beat a bit faster!

 

I joined the gym and I have stuck it out. I bottled on the counselling but I have gone no contact for almost 4 months and not done anything silly like drive past her house or go to places I think she might be.

 

I'm wondering if the fact one of my mates got a text from her the other day as she helps out every summer on a project in a school with disabled children and I'm pretty certain it was related to that. I have said to my friend not to ask her if she a boyfriend or not to say I'm single as I hate the thought of her moving on even though I shouldn't.

 

I guess I just have to keep on going, but there haven't been any more dating opportunities (I don't think girls have ever found me that attractive!), so that sometimes makes me regret splitting up with my ex, but what's done is done and I can't change that now!

 

Thank you for reading. Any comments welcome :-)