Been almost two months

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So my now ex boyfriend and I were together for five months. We met at the school I currently go too. We became friends which is kinda funny because he used to come to my old school across town after I got out of school I’d see him. But was always too nervous to go talk to him. So I started going to my current school this year and I met him. His name was Tyler. In the beginning it was rough because he wasn’t really into our relationship we were just together but more friends. But he was on probation and he was picked up at school the first day things started getting better for him and I. He was gone for a month. We wrote each other. He told me he loved me and how much he cared about me and how a girl has never waied for him or wanted to be with him as much as I did and never treated huim the way I did(on his birthday I went over to his house with more presents his ridiculous parents bought him and I baked him a cake and woke him up). Well when he got out of being locked up we started to be inseperable. Everyday we’d hang out. Everyday we’d always be together. I lost my virginity to him. He met my family. I met his. We all liked each other. I felt so inferior to him the whole time we were together. He was always too good for me. No matter how much of a better person I made him become or how much better of a person I was compared to him. I loved this boy. With everything I had. He acted the same with me. He came over every day and stayed till way late at night. From time to time I’d pass out when he was still there and he’d leave later. We were engaged. (Yea. Again please don’t disrespect my wishes and preach to me.) I lost my virginity to him. We were the modern day bonnie and clyde. We were never apart. Wherever one of us were the other one was. We talked about everything. No one saw this coming. They all said we were the best couple. We were voted best couple at our continuation high school. We smoked and drank on a every day basis. We got along so well sober or intoxicated. We had our problems yes but we always came back from them stronger. So.. A few days after our five month he started acting really weird and I finally found out what happened. He cheated on me. I got a picture message showing me him kissing another girl. I called and asked him if he had. He finally admitted to it and said that it was a mistake and he felt terrible and loved me and was never going to hang out with her and that he wanted me and to work things out with me. I said okay and we decided to stay together and work things out. He kept away from me. He never came back to my house and talked to me. We talked on the phone and he acted as if nothing was wrong between us. Three days later he texted and called me saying he loved me all day and that night he called me and said he was going to come over the next day to talk to me after school and said he loved me and he'd see me the next day. Not even twenty minutes after he said that I got a text from him saying he loved me and he always would but he needed to be alone for awhile and he's breaking up with me. Permanently. It crushed me. The next day he never showed up. Even though I didn't really expect him too. It's been weeks. A month ago for a weekend he was supposed to come over and talk with me and hang out with no pressure. He left his house without his parents knowing and left for the whole weekend and didn't call or try to get ahold of me even though we had plans. I haven't talked to him since. I want him back.. But he doesn't want me. I never did anything to deserve this from him.. I treated him right. The whole time. From when he was locked up to him cheating on me. I never cheated on him. He was able to talk to me. He even said we were made for each other. I know him better than anyone else.. I miss him so much. What do I do? I love him...

 

 

Please someone help me. I'm lovesick and I hate it. I'm tired of holding in my emotions and trying to force it out. I need some advice.