bluz73 Posted June 20, 2010 Share Posted June 20, 2010 For all these months of you all reading and telling me the right thing to do, I finally listened. I sent my final message here it is: I know none of what I am about to write matters to you anymore but One last time I am going to explain my reasoning for my bad choice in behavior. I moved a thousand miles away again, let my kids live with their father and had to deal with this ****. I seriously had the worst time of my entire life and it was'nt very fun. I was so lost and confused.Try to put yourself in my shoes and mindset for 5 minutes. Remember how you felt and reacted when I left you in 2007..it sucked badly..But I still talked to you for 2 years after the fact. I didnt just pretend you never existed. I do know you loved me and I thank you for that. We had the most intense connection and love for so many years and it was very hard to say goodbye I will be the first to admit I was wrong. It was out of character and stupid of me. I can only hope someday you can forgive me. I have'nt made any contact with Kate since April, when I sent my condolences and won't ever again. I have accepted your choice and let go of us awhile ago. The only reason I wrote ,was to own up to what I done and put the past behind me. I am trying to get on with my life. I admitted my mistakes and apologized for my wrong doings. Thats all I can do at this point. If you can't forgive me, thats the choice you will have to live with. We both equally ****ed up and I am sorry, We will never know what might have been. I won't ever bother you again. Maybe someday things will be different, But for right now, I am done trying. THEN I BLOCKED HIM ON FACEBOOK FOR GOOD! What do you all think, Am I a nice person to write this and then just let him go for good? Link to post Share on other sites
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