oOsweetkissesOo Posted February 7, 2004 Share Posted February 7, 2004 Hey everyone! Someone please help me out here! Today was a bad day! I got really upset and I cut my wrist 2 times. I need your help! What can I use as an excuse, I'm scared I'm going to be questioned about it by my work or school or something. The marks look so "perfect" I tried to make them look not so perfect but they still look perfect..they are diagonal lines that are very noticeable. Someone please help me out with an excuse. Link to post Share on other sites
carla Posted February 7, 2004 Share Posted February 7, 2004 You need to talk to someone. Find someone that you can trust and that will listen to you. You need to talk and find out why you are hurting yourself. You are obviously in emotional pain. You probably have problems at home? school? friends? or no friends? relationship? Insecure of yourself? Believe it or not you do have family and friends that care. They would be devistated if something happened to you. Look for help see a counsellor . Find other ways to release your frustrations. Go to a used book store and buy a thick cheap book. When you feel angry Rip and tar that book to pieces sceam if you have to. I know for a fact that someone would be less upset at having little bites of paper all over then having to rush you to the hospital. You have so much to live for, it may seem that your world is crashing down around you but its all part of life. All these problems that you feel will never go away will go away its part of life that makes you stronger and makes you who you are. Get help is the best thing you could do. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Darkangelism Posted February 7, 2004 Share Posted February 7, 2004 You need help, please get some, i hope that u continue to post. Link to post Share on other sites
Author oOsweetkissesOo Posted February 7, 2004 Author Share Posted February 7, 2004 I got angry again and did it again..I regret it! I'm not the type of person who would do this stuff! Today is strange..everything is bothering me. People kept asking me if I wanted to talk to them..I guess for once I didn't put a fake smile on my face. I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to. The friends I have now aren't really friends who I trust..I guess I can't call them friends if I don't trust them! Anyways, I've been reading about this stuff and I read that the problem becomes worse...I'd say I would stop but guess what? I said that and it happened again. You see if I talk to someone then they will turn me into the psycho ward and then I'll be in the hospital being treated like a peice of **** (my sis's friend was in the hospital for this stuff and they treated her like ****) anyways what my point is, if I go around and tell someone who knows..they could turn me in..around here people get paid $20 to turn someone in. I don't have anyone who I really trust! I feel like a total nutcase! I'm really usually not like this. I guess today I just built up all the anger and felt like that was the only way out..even though I know it's not the only way out I just feel like doing it. It's strange and scary! In my mind I was thinking "i wanna die" but I knew how far to go if I was actually going to slit my wrist that far...I didn't even do it in the right place because I know that thats not the way out..if I know that then why did I cut my wrist to begin with? It's just really strange! Right now I'm not as upset as I was. Things are starting to wind down...I just keep thinking..tomarrow will be better--but who knows tomarrow could be worse..It should be better because I have to go to work but hey who knows I could screw up and get in trouble I'm the perfectionist type so when I screw up it's like the end of the world to me and I feel pathetic! Thanks so much for your advice..I really appreciate it! I'm glad they have forums like these around..if it wasn't for these their would be noone to talk to except something like a notebook..which you don't get any feedback from notebooks! I really apreciate the advice you gave me! Link to post Share on other sites
Darkangelism Posted February 7, 2004 Share Posted February 7, 2004 how old are you? cutting yourself is bad. If you want to somebody, PM me and ill give you my AIM, yahoo, and phone #. Link to post Share on other sites
Pookette Posted February 7, 2004 Share Posted February 7, 2004 Kisses... Are you trying to kill yourself when you are doing this or are you just cutting because (strangely) it feels good? I admit I did this when I was younger, but quickly grew out of it when I realized how stupid it is. It wasn't a suicide attempt, it was just cutting. If it is not a suicide attempt on your part, check this site out....http://www.selfinjury.com/ If it is in fact a suicide attempt, then contact the police, emergency room, mental health clinic etc in your area. You won't be treated like a piece of doo if you are seeking help. These people are trained professionals trying to help you. Take it easy on your body, it's the only one you're gonna get... Link to post Share on other sites
faux Posted February 7, 2004 Share Posted February 7, 2004 Originally posted by oOsweetkissesOo I got angry again and did it again..I regret it! I'm not the type of person who would do this stuff! Today is strange..everything is bothering me. People kept asking me if I wanted to talk to them..I guess for once I didn't put a fake smile on my face. I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to. The friends I have now aren't really friends who I trust..I guess I can't call them friends if I don't trust them! Anyways, I've been reading about this stuff and I read that the problem becomes worse...I'd say I would stop but guess what? I said that and it happened again. You see if I talk to someone then they will turn me into the psycho ward and then I'll be in the hospital being treated like a peice of **** (my sis's friend was in the hospital for this stuff and they treated her like ****) anyways what my point is, if I go around and tell someone who knows..they could turn me in..around here people get paid $20 to turn someone in. I don't have anyone who I really trust! I feel like a total nutcase! I'm really usually not like this. I guess today I just built up all the anger and felt like that was the only way out..even though I know it's not the only way out I just feel like doing it. It's strange and scary! In my mind I was thinking "i wanna die" but I knew how far to go if I was actually going to slit my wrist that far...I didn't even do it in the right place because I know that thats not the way out..if I know that then why did I cut my wrist to begin with? It's just really strange! Right now I'm not as upset as I was. Things are starting to wind down...I just keep thinking..tomarrow will be better--but who knows tomarrow could be worse..It should be better because I have to go to work but hey who knows I could screw up and get in trouble I'm the perfectionist type so when I screw up it's like the end of the world to me and I feel pathetic! Thanks so much for your advice..I really appreciate it! I'm glad they have forums like these around..if it wasn't for these their would be noone to talk to except something like a notebook..which you don't get any feedback from notebooks! I really apreciate the advice you gave me! Please pay attention to what I have to say. Self infliction (you causing injury to yourself) is a very serious problem. I don't know why you are doing this, but it can be for many reasons. I myself used to do this and I have stayed in a few mental hospitals because of it. Get help. Please. Tell someone. You need therapy of some kind, possibly medication if it is right for you. Let someone who is qualified help you decide, and help you find out what you can do. It's far better to tell someone and recognize you have this problem, and to try to get help than to have someone discover it, and force you to be put into a hospital. It is much better for you to seek out help. Coming here to post is a very good thing. Next time you feel like hurting yourself tell someone. Try calling a suicide prevention hotline. You aren't trying to kill yourself hopefully, but they can still help you. You'll have someone to talk to, whenever you need to, and they won't know who you are, and they won't make anything happen to you unless you ask for them to do something. I cannot stress how important it is to tell someone what you are doing and to get help. That is what I did and it really helped me. I won't lie. It took a very long time for me, and I was on medication for a few years. Right now I'm doing really well, have been off of medication for a year and don't need therapy any longer (Unless I find myself in a really difficult situation, and need to start it up again until I overcome it, if I can't handle it on my own.) I also said I was in hospitals. They're really not all bad. I've been in adolescent and adult inpatient environments, and if you really want to get helped there you can find ways to feel better again. Lots of people go to therapy. Lots of people are also on medication, and more people than you think have to go into hospitals sometimes when they just can't handle things. I really would like for you to do the right thing and get help. Please find someone you know in person you can talk to, someone who cares and will try to help you. This is really dangerous, and as I said if you don't come forward to try to get help, and someone discovers what you are doing, you will be forced into getting help which makes you feel as though you have even less control. I wish you the absolute best of luck. These things take time, but don't lose hope. I did many times, but I'm doing alright now! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
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