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:( Um i am about 2 lose it completely. I fink i hav dun da worst posible n had sex wif ma ex. I feel like ****.

Last nite she called at the time i was depressed bein smoking pot heaps so it had effected me. Ma ex was worried bout so she said 2 cum ova n talk about it. Well i told 2 **** off but she insisted. Well at her house i just felt so horney man im cryin as im writing dis. Well one thing led 2 da otha n we we went 4 it.

 

Guys dis was da first time 2 c her since da breakup and im feelin so depressed i hav 2 look up 2 c da bottom. She said she had strong feelings 4 me n she missed me but the catch was dat she was afraid she wasnt goin 2 b faithful. Man it cut me up so hard but i accepted. I didnt want dat nite 2 end we did it twice but da nxt morning it was da worst 4 me. I tried ma best 2 put on da fake smile.

 

SHe said that she had a new outlook in life and dat was not 2 believe in relationships n dat she is 2 young yet. We are only 19 but man i want her bak bad, but i am so confused its killing me. She has a few guys lined up and now im thinkin she about 2 b da new bachelorette on da block. Man its cuttin me so hard.

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I hope you know how unbelievably difficult it was to read that post. Of the entire post, ten of the words were actually words, spelled correctly, and in the right place.

 

Stop smoking pot--Some people can afford, braincellwise, to do drugs, I don't think you're one of those people. Stop having sex with her, that's not going to win her back. Move on, and get over her.

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You WILL get through this.....

 

Let me tell you an example.....My first husband and I were both 19 when we got married, divorced @ 21. I thought I was never going to love again.....cried all the time, we had our encounters (after the split up) for what? I'm now 24 and I say If I knew then what I know now (and still learning) I would of felt better.

 

I am now married again and actually friends with my ex and his wife and I have become good friends.

 

Your heart will mend and hopefully someday you will meet your future wife and you will see you can love another, most likely more (I know, I know, it's hard to believe right now) but I was there.

 

Good luck, this SOMEDAY will pass, just think that :)

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Hey,

 

Trust me - that stuff (which I'm not too fond of) will just worsen things for the ride you're about to undertake. My vice is drinking and I took a dive headfirst into ongoing melancholy. I just hammered into the stuff and I did/said some things that I regret. Now, in a healthier frame of mind I find strength in myself and a determination to get my life on track. You can do the same. Just charge on.

 

I know it's hard...you know, at the end of the day, I'm finding that it's proving to be a good experience. And you will too. It's just this ride. Go somewhere if you have to....I ain't religious but I recently went to a church just to sit and think. I think embracing that silence helps. You go in there cold...without the effects of drugs and stuff...just sit alone and think...and gather up the strength.

 

You turn to friends....and the ones that toughen you up are amazing. I feel as though I can walk through a wall. Trust me - tell the pot to take a hike. Leave that chick alone and just look forward to what you can and will achieve in life. Man, what a pause button this has been for me and I promised myself that it wouldn't happen again.

 

If you wanna do a sort of online up to date thing --- post me and tell me how you're doing. This girl is messin with your head. I knew a girl like that once and she really was just playing. She was enjoying the pain I was going through...feeding off it.

 

Buddy, step out of that for good. Save your dough, save your mental state...get back on track and when the hottest most faithful chick comes around you'll know what to do.

 

Take care man.

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smoking pot make a person less intelligent?

 

a friend of mine who is the biggest pothead i have ever met... has been in hospital because of it just recently got his pHd in chemical engineering... to look at this guy you'd think he was a tramp...

 

don't know how he did it?

 

i read some of his pHd and it was serious stuff

 

suppose as dyarmaker says you gotta have the cells in the first place!

 

although younger people are using that horrible text born shorthand, it is awful and usually pointless!

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I don't know if it makes someone less inteligent, I lack the scientific research, or the interest in the results. I do have experience with people who are pretty stupid, and happen to smoke too much pot, I dunno if that counts.

 

Like I said, I think that if a really smart person wants to toke up now and then, they won't notice effects. But some people can't afford to do it.

 

I also don't define intelligence as entirely booksmartishness. I think that it says something about you, if you throw away such a brilliant mind, by allowing addiction to take over your life enough to end up in the hospital.

 

I'm not going to judge the intelligence of anyone, it was just my perception that perhaps he wasn't as smart as he could be (I have an incredible bias towards ppl whu tpye bad on purpose) and that drugs certainly aren't helping.

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I think this love business tends to make us all a bit lacking in the brain cell department....it removes all reason and clarity as we claw at some form of hope. Well, some of us...I'll definitely admit to that.

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Originally posted by dario

I think this love business tends to make us all a bit lacking in the brain cell department....it removes all reason and clarity as we claw at some form of hope.

 

That's more emotional than cognitive, and it's certainly reversible.

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