swizzelstickfairy Posted August 24, 2010 Share Posted August 24, 2010 (edited) Ive never been very lucky in love... My first bf was the love of my lofe i loved him but he was a player and he hurt me i ended it after 3 years....went out with a guy for 4 years he ended it coz he was cheeting on me i later found out 2 months after we split up! had 2 years single met this other guy we will call him MR D.... hes lovely we used to have some brilliant times now at the beginning of the year i became unemployed and things were stressfull, i caight him talking to a few girls on line and got jelours! (jeloursy is nasty) we argued and i used to try and just put things down to stres im working now and things are getting better we can afford are rent and bills so its better... but hes still talking to these goirls in chat rooms, he has gilrs sending him "xxxxx" all the time and it winds me up! i try not to let on! he gets upset with me coz i have what the docs think is a cyst on my ovary it makes sex very painfull but i try coz i still have the need but it hurts and he moans and say i dont want him...!! he dont listen to me and hes so lazy when it comes to house work... hes had 12 days of and hardly done anything! i love him but i dont love him the way i love/d my first love...... and just to make things complicated me ex as in my first love got in touch with me the other day and we have been txting he says he never stoped lovong me and dosnt know why we split up and all this but hes engaged and he got a kid and one on the way! for some reason this upsets me!?! i dont know why.... he txt me this morning but aint hered from him since all day... wanna txt him but no its wrong to.... he says he wants to get together and that he would come to london! he was a player and i dont think hes changed! ive told him nouthing will happen as he has a kid and gf im not a home breaker and even if i split with MR D i would not break up his relationship for the kids sake if no one elses the ex would have to cool it off first! im confussed... i feel like crying!! i dont know what i want Edited August 24, 2010 by swizzelstickfairy Link to post Share on other sites
lilyy.12 Posted August 26, 2010 Share Posted August 26, 2010 my ex was also a player bad boy type & he hurt me so much even after 3 years e still talk & he sills says he cares alot for me & he too has a kid.but i have a bf too & to be honest im confused to. but what im doing to save my bf,my ex & myself pain is to take time on my own & figure things out.&& see how my feelings are doing with them out of the picture hope it helps keep in touch:) Link to post Share on other sites
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