Why do people commit suicide?

[Paul]

Dear AmHopeful,

 

Originally posted by AmHopeful

This past Saturday night, I was in the lowest state I've even been in, I was a step away from death. The only reason I didn't follow through was I wasn't a 100% sure I would be successful. I don't want to try and fail, and suffer even more than what I am feeling now. When I'm more prepared, I want to end it and let it be my final statement.

 

Today, I am not as close as I was Saturday night, but am more clear about what I may have to do to be 100% sucessful. It's an awful state to be in and unfortunately I've visited it often. It's the most awful hurt and all I want to do is end the pain.

 

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We ask that before posting further or making any decisions on this matter, that you agree to contact one of the agencies listed below and take a few moments to give yourself the opportunity to explore all of your options before making truly irreversible choices. There are many people who care about your success as an individual and want to work this out with you at no charge, getting you the support and services that may change your life for the better. We want to make sure we point you in the right direction.

 

• National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org (United States)
  Managed by the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA)
  1-800-273-TALK (8255)
  
• National Hopeline Network, http://www.hopeline.com (United States)
  Managed by the Kristin Brooks Hope Center
  1-800-SUICIDE (784-2433)
  

 

Best wishes,

Paul

[AmHopeful]

Thanks Paul-

 

Yup, I've been getting pretty good professional help. But Saturday my H was really pushing my bad buttons and I didn't feel like he cared for me or our lives anymore, but, I know that there are others that still do. Actually, someone must have really been concerned big time - the local police stopped at my home this Wednesday. Hmmm - too bad I am currently of town visiting friends and enjoying their local sights and flavors.

 

Thanks LS!

[Explorer]

My life cycles and every time I pick it up it is slammed down by a layoff, or someone brighter comes along, or the ones I love find others. Now, my sister is harassing me over an estate. I refuse to be stolen from and lied to, and I need it to end. I can't fight forever.

[Raz]

I agree with what Tphillip had to say. I just thought I would share my story with everyone. Maybe then people will understand why "they" try to commit suicide.

I was once like that. I felt like there was nothing to live for. I went on vacation with my God-parents far away from society and my family. I was then sexually abused by my God-father. I was a totally different person when I got home. I made a friend that went through some of the same things that I had gone through. She moved in with me after 2 years of knowing her. She was suicidal, depressed and she was also a self injurer. I had only known her 2 weeks when she tried her first suicide attempt. She called me at 2 in the morning while she was dying. I called 911 and paramedics were able to save her. She was obviously not happy at home, so that's when I asked her to move in with me. I was always paranoid with what she might try next. I saved her life twice. I'm not going to go into any details, but it was so mentally and physically draining to watch her. I was in school at the time and I would stay up all night and day just because she was in a bad mood. My school work, My family, and myself suffered greatly from this. I finally realized that I wasn't any better off than her. I was Self-injuring, I had major depression, I became an outcast of my family. I would only come out of my room to use the restroom and shower. I developed a severe eating disorder, I was diagnosed with a heart condition, and I got kicked out of school because SHE told the school about my suicidal behavior. They made me show them the cuts on my skin. after that I got kicked out until I was released from the phych. they loaded me up on prozac and said I was "OK" to go back to school.. when all the meds did was increase the suicidal behavior. I would overdose on the med just to try and feel better. I ended up meeting the man of my dreams after living with her for 6 months. She got extremely jealous of him. I would always try to include her, but she didn't want anything to do with him. we soon stopped talking to eachother and after a month of this she moved out. We haven't talked since. I'm glad I don't have any further contact. I am mentally and physically doing Great!! no more meds no more self injury no more suicide attempts.

I guess the point I wanted to make was even though you think you might not have anything to live for you never know what can happen to you in future.. something great is bound to come. Just hang in there as soon as possible. Don't let anyone drag you down and don't think it's your responsibility to watch over someone who is suicidal. Just try to show them that you care and encourage them to get professional help. Life does get better.