I can't describe how I am feeling it's awkward :

[Billie The Puppet]

Since I've found LS I've been going through different states of mind / emotions

 

I have been struggling with my emotions daily they are mixed with remembering the good times, mourning the loss of my relationship, questioning why or how I can fix it etc but today I am feeling blank, not empty because an empty feeling to me is as if my heart is not in my chest. Today my heart is felt there pumping freely, my brain however feels fried. I can think of my ex in any state Ie good times, bad times etc and it's not triggering an emotion. I can picture her with some one else and it's not bothering me at the moment. At the same time I can picture her with me and I don't feel anything either. Now I know this is just in my head but if it were reality true feelings may come through. It is sad as if I am emotionless but also as if my brain is not functioning. Time is slow and I can sadly tell you I prefer the mixed state of mind over what I am currently feeling. Though I think this is the exact state I'd need to be in given the opportunity to meet up with the ex.