The Ex or the Current BF?

[Barby]

I will try and make this as short as possible....I ended a 7 year relationship at the beginning of this year due to us growing apart, past issues we tended to rehash, ect.....fast forward....I met my current boyfriend about 5 months ago...and during the first month of our relationship I ended up running back into my ex...we talked, tried to reconcile...needless to say I was extremely confused because I had the love for my ex but also had feelings for my current BF....

 

I ended up choosing to continue the relationship with my current BF but let him know of my recent contact with my ex, my confusion, ect...I felt he deserved to know the truth...(do onto others as you want done on to you)...so

I cut contact with the ex...focused on my relationship but all the while my heart was crying out for my ex....

A few weeks ago I found out I was 2 months pregnant (8 weeks and 3 days)...my current BF and myself are expecting..neither of us have had kids...first for both of us (and yes I'm sure it's my current BF's..no chance it's my ex's as we had no sexual contact when we were talking previously)....anyway here's the problem....

 

Lately once again I'm finding myself sad and missing my ex, he knows I'm pregnant and wishes we could be together....I am so confused because of our long history...he would make a great father...so will my current BF...there is a 7 year difference in age between myself and my current BF (i'm 30 and he's 23)...he is a bit young...although he's responsible and seems committed I just have my doubts on how ready he really is for this life long commitment....I don't know what to do........

 

I know I'm rambling I'm sorry I just needed to vent and get some advice.

[FryFish]

Why werent you on birth control?

[Barby]

Being 30 years old I am very much ready to be a mother....both of the men mentioned in my posts also are ready to become parents.

 

HOWEVER that has nothing to do with the post...I'm confused on rather or not I should act on my intense longing to give it another chance with my ex.

 

I am not a bad person...there is a lot of un-resolved issues between my ex and myself that may be why i'm feeling the need to reach out to him...maybe i'm really seeking closure...?

 

This baby is a HUGE blessing to me so that isn't an issue...I'm willing and able to have and raise my child on my own...however this isn't the issue at hand.