For how long have you been in NC? Where do you feel you are now?

[listen_to_me_please]

she cheated, i was love sick, i threw her out but begged her back.

she managed to turn the break up around on me. It was the end. NC was my only option

 

2 years, 6 months.

 

my only regret is, after finding about the cheating, i should of cut all contact and not stood around for my head to be smashed in but she kept begging and i caved and i suffered for the weakness.

 

i still miss her.

 

i wonder why she felt the need to curse me out and tell lies to people.

i think she was angry about something, what i have no idea.

maybe its because i stopped caring, or waited to long before i told her i loved her (1.5 years) or too long to make a commitment, I don't know and I don't even know why she stayed with me for so long.

 

I wonder why she never contacted me, maybe it was because i moved to a new state and changed my phone number.

weird girl but she was mine, i took her for granted. she left me, then strung me along and finally she damaged my brain. I think she wanted to explore.

 

her body was warm. i wish we were still together. i miss her allot.

i loved her. only girl i ever loved other than my sister.

i don't talk to either of them anymore.

 

i think my heart turned to ice. i don't think i will see her again in life. i think she moved on but still remembers me. i want to kiss her again. i need a new girlfriend.

 

nc 2 years, 6 months. pride doesn't allow me to speak to her. i want her back more than anything else.

i called her once just so i could hear her voice, i didnt speak. i had the phone on mute. sometimes i wonder if she even loved me, i never gave her anything, in the end she was using me and wanted things. its almost like i became a sugar daddy. i think that relationship was extremely damaged. we stooped having sex. she only came around for money. i think i became her sponsper and she became a prositute for hire.

 

its almost as if, i took out a canister of gasoline, she picked it up and poured it on the bridge, then i lit the match and set it ablaze.

we always worked as a team.

odd, don't even know why she's still in my heart.

 

i wonder if she still wonders, i wonder if she's still angry. i wonder why she hasn't contacted me, not even to say hello. i wonder if i'll see her again, i'll probably not acknowledge her and while she's not looking smile with joy. Sometimes I can still feel her.

 

what did she tell me "men are so stupid, they never know what they have until its gone", she was right, to bad she was a whore.

i have no regrets.

Edited September 29, 2010 by listen_to_me_please

[benB]

I am also on day 6. We have been broken up since August. This is the longest we have been NC. She used to call and text me every other day but I finally realized how crappy she had treated me and told her this. I also asked if she had been involved with a guy who she suddenly became so close with and she never answered me. So I guess I got my answer, I made the mistake of looking at Fb and seeing a video of her dressed like a slut dancing with some dude. That hurt alot and to make things worse this weekend is her birthday and a ton of people are coming to visit her. We go to the same college and I know I am going to be thinking of her the whole weekend. Even though I shouldn't care about her b day because she treated me like crap on a b day a little over a month ago

[bboy]

3 months coming up.

 

Sometimes I'm reminded of the good, sometimes the bad. When I'm occupied, I'm not reminded at all.

 

Emotions still come and go. But I don't know if it is because of the loss of the individual or because of the void it created.

[jeff2321]

5-6 Weeks NC.

 

 

I'm a ****ing wreck and barely functional. I goto to work and the come home and drink my ass off and take as many pain pills as possible to sleep. I'm going to continue going to salsa three days a week and I'm even signed up to jump out of a ****ing airplane next week ( sky diving ). Honestly I don't even care if the parachute opens or not.... is that bad?

 

Friends are dropping off like flies because they are tried of hearing about my breakup ****. I've never been so alone in my life. I've never experienced this kind of pain in my life.

 

I've got to get the courage to start a massive workout plan and find a way to build back up my self esteem and self image... I'm slowly getting to that point where I can do it again but I haven't committed to it.

 

For now it's just going to work, salsa, and spending my nights depressed out of my mind. It's now friday and I've had two friends basically eject me from their lives because they just don't want to be around 'depressed jeff who lost his girlfriend'... Life just ****ing blows ass right now.

 

So yeah that's how I'm doing since implementing NC.

 

Jeff

[Emptiness]

I guess coming up to four weeks NC. We randomly ran into each otehr on the street a couple of weeks ago and had a chat, but i'm not sure that counts.

 

I am finding it hard, she broke up with me at a very stressful and important time of my life (and for her too) and find it difficult to cope without her being around to let me know everything will be all right.

 

Not really sure what happened, will right a thread one day when I have time... we have agreed to meet up in about a month or so when both our stressful times are over. Not sure what is going to happen then ... anything from I want you back to get out of my life I guess. Hopefullly get some answers and some closure.

[bboy]

So 4 months.... actually a little bit more..

It is quite some time. If I think about my ex, I don't get all over emotional. Saw a picture recently and looked away. Not because I knew I had to, but rather an instinct. No initiation of contact from either one.

 

Still, I can wake up in the morning and think about it with a big *sigh*. The whole thing just feels like a big waste. Holidays are coming up fast and I hope Christmas is going to be easy on me.

 

Do date and so, but have not given it an honest shot yet. Lame I guess, but going serious with someone who I can't commit feels just as lame.

[havehope]

Day 1 again because I blew it by finally giving in to his million texts... we've talked on and off for the past 1.5yrs. He cheated. I wish I did NC immediately but like an idiot I didn't... and I'm still crying and wallowing 1.5yrs later with LC.

 

I know I need NC... but I'm afraid I'll never speak to him ever again in my life. Which is the purpose of NC... and probably what I need but the thought of losing my once best friend sucks. I think I'm avoiding that goodbye conversation.

 

Longest I've gone is 4 months though. And I know if I can do it once, I can do it again.

[jwallace1986]

managed 2 months despite her bombarding me saying she missed me etc.....split due to her feelings for her ex, recently tried telling me she was completely over him, turned out she lied.......back to no contact

[Banker Chick]

Day 1 again for me after being NC for over 6 weeks. I was doing really really well but had something emotionally draining happen that the only person that would understand was him so I reached out. Before I went NC we were discussing getting back together so I knew he'd be available for me when I called and he was.

 

As usual, the call lasted over 2 hours while we caught up and reminisced a little about our relationship and then he wanted to fall asleep while on the phone together. I think he still feels there's hope for the future but I just don't think there is. **Please don't blast me for using him emotionally because he was the one that instigated the break up back in August. It's just later on he changed his mind and by then I was confused....and still am**

 

Breaking the NC didn't set me back as much as I thought it would (it did some, that's for sure) and at least I'm not sitting here trying to do everything in my power to avoid contacting him. That's progress!

[Sonolumino]

2 months NC. I'm now strangers with someone I was very intimate with. Weird.

[habs53]

NC since June 20th. Which ironically was the day my ex and I started talking 2 years ago. Since then, she tried contacting me 4 times. Ignored her 4 times.

 

Right now, I'm at a ****ty stage due to the fact that my ex has a boyfriend when she said she wasn't gonna look for one for a long time.

Haha, mine said the same thing a few weeks ago. Well that she was not ready to date. Seen her on a dating site tonight.

[SimonSerenade]

Only been 2 weeks since I decided on no contact due to her being off with me and not caring, This alone time without her in my life started off horribly as I always wondered what she was doing while I was here hurting, She crosses my mind everyday in near enough every moment, I wonder how often I cross her mind, I'm using this time to focus on me and me alone and how I need and should change, I'm using this time to forgive her for everything, I feel once I forgive with the whole of my heart I'll be able to let go of all this anger and pain and hopefully one day be happy for whatever future decisions she makes.

[cerridwen]

It's been 4 weeks since we broke up and 12 days NC.

 

I am mostly okay. Get sad during romantic movies. Realizing how many things were right in front of my face that I chose to ignore. Starting to see I'm mourning the fantasy of what our life together would have been like. And it was a fantasy because he's not capable of loving fully. I see that now.

[Rosberg]

broke up on nov 17.

last contact was when i sent her "my last message" on facebook, saying i couldn't be friends with her, that it would just hurt more etc etc which was probably at 5 am this morning, so...now it's 5:40pm, and i just don't think...no damn, i don't know, there's still a part of me that wants her back, although she used me, and according to her last message, she still is trying to.

 

i've successfully removed her from my fb page, my phone, and skype.

i put the pictures of her, along with info, phone number etc, into a small text file, with pictures and songs that remind me of her, and a recording of her voice from my phone, into a folder which is shall stay away from like fire. i just wanted to keep a few memories.