We Broke Up...

[kgal]

Well.....

 

It was a month ago.. and we had been together for around 3 months. We were very much in love.. at least .. I was. He told me he fell in love w/me too.. but I still don't know if he really did love me... due to his current behaivor.

 

First.. here's some background...we have known each other for about 8 years.. were good friends.. he was actually my brother's best friend. He knew I was "off limits" but I secretly had a crush on him.. and I feel he did on me as well. He would support me and be a really good listener and friend when I needed one. He was dating a girl for a while.. who I thought he would marry.. but they broke up a few months before WE got together.

 

Anyways,, something else is.. our religion. He is a Muslim.. and I am Christian. However, he never showed any of his spirituality towards me.. and so I never really felt it was a problem.. until we started getting serious.

 

To make a long story short... we broke up because we knew it wouldn't have worked out... neither did he tell his family about me.. because in that religion.. the family picks the wife.. but we were in love! I just don't understand.

 

So.. now we're on a "break" and we decided to be friends.. but he waits.. like days before he'll email me.. and I fear he's trying to phase me out of his life. I'm scared.. because I don't want to lose my friend. It doesn't bother me so much that we can't be together.. like that.. but I do miss his friendship. He says we're friends.. but he's not there like a friend should.

 

I just really miss him.. and I wish he would realize he loves me.. so much that he tells his parents the truth and comes back to me.

 

Am I blind? I feel that anything is possible.. and I feel like I should hold on to some hope..

 

This has just been the hardest thing for me.. this was my first true love and first guy I ever let really love me and gave my heart to. I'm so heartbroken.. I never knew a person could actually feel this sad.. and depressed. I've been angry at him.. for not writing.. but I dont write him emails in anger.. because I dont want to ruin anything we have left.. or scare him away.

 

Is it wrong to feel this terrible and still want things to miraculously turn around for the better after a month?

I've cried many times a day and I just get so sick of it.. I dont know why he did this to me.

[faux]

I know that this is very difficult for you, but if you can do your very best to keep distant for the time being things may turn out better. Just give yourself some time to heal, and perhaps within a month or two you will be able to have that friend you really want from this man.

 

I feel that because of the closeness you two recently shared, perhaps stepping down to a friendship level is going to be difficult at this moment. Time heals, and I feel for you. I hope that you two will be able to maintain a friendship as you both seem to want.

 

The few ex-girlfriends that I have been able to maintain friendships with are truly a blessing. But it takes time to adjust to that sort of change.

[kgal]

Thank you for your reply, Faux. This gives me some hope that time will work everything out for the best.. and hopefully, he will not give up on our friendship.