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Well today I was fine until like 10 minutes ago. I started to think about her and how I miss her so much. I broke down and started crying. Before today I knew we both made mistakes in the relationship, but now I feel like its all my fault, but she did run instead of talking about it. I do have some problems that I have fixed and I'm working on more, I just wish she could see the new me and realize that I changed. I want to contact her, but I know nothing good will come from it.

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Stay strong man, make sure u stick to your advice..nothing good will come of it...I have not been a follower of my own advice...I am learning the hard way. I've been kind of off and on NC for 4 weeks.

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Stay strong man, make sure u stick to your advice..nothing good will come of it...I have not been a follower of my own advice...I am learning the hard way. I've been kind of off and on NC for 4 weeks.

I won't break it. I've read to many posts of people breaking NC. Most of the time nothing good comes of it. I won't cause myself more pain.

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Buddy boy, I think it shall soon be time for you to move on. You're not doing any good to yourself going over and over what went wrong.

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Buddy boy, I think it shall soon be time for you to move on. You're not doing any good to yourself going over and over what went wrong.

I know and I am moving on. I try not to think about what went wrong. Just fix it and make the next relationship better.

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Well today makes 2 months of NC. I'm not really keeping track. I just know that every Monday is another week of NC.

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well i just got back from the gym. It was a pretty good work out. I feel the burn throughout my body :). During the workout a song came up on my ipod. I think its called "the sound of goodbye". Its a techno song so i didn't think much about it. I was so wrong! I just

wanted to cry like i did the day of the break up. I don't know where those feelings came from. I didn't though. just sucked it in. the feelings went away when the song was over. Im good now. Shower, bed and sleep like a baby! :)

 

Haha I know I'm late to respond, but I just wanted to say this about the emotions while working out...

 

I've always found that after a really hard workout, when all of my carbs are depleted and my 'stress is gone', I can cry over a dropped fork. Or carcasses in the grocery store. I swear. This might have to do with hormone fluctuations during maximum exertion. :)

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Well today makes 2 months of NC. I'm not really keeping track. I just know that every Monday is another week of NC.

 

Two months NC....VERY NICE

 

Stick to IT!

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Two months NC....VERY NICE

 

Stick to IT!

Thanks Username. I'm not going to break it for any reason.

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How are you feeling? Getting any easier?

Yes, it's getting easier. I still have some bad times, but not as much. I think I'll be fine as long as I never see, hear from, or hear about her. I'm working out and learning physics again.

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Ok I might have a problem.

 

This Friday is Senior Night at the high school and my sister is being recognized for being a trainer. My dad is suppose to escort her on to the field but he might not be back from work in time to do that.

 

I might have to escort her and they will say both our names on the speakers.

 

My ex will be there, along with him because they are in the band. I really don't want to see her or him for a longgggggg time. Last time I was in the same area as her I felt weak and sick.

 

My best friend told me that I kinda have no choice, but that I should pretend they are not there.

 

I really don't know what to do.

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Ok I might have a problem.

 

This Friday is Senior Night at the high school and my sister is being recognized for being a trainer. My dad is suppose to escort her on to the field but he might not be back from work in time to do that.

 

I might have to escort her and they will say both our names on the speakers.

 

My ex will be there, along with him because they are in the band. I really don't want to see her or him for a longgggggg time. Last time I was in the same area as her I felt weak and sick.

 

My best friend told me that I kinda have no choice, but that I should pretend they are not there.

 

I really don't know what to do.

 

Yes, pretend they aren't there (i did that just tonight and it went over splendidly). Plus, you're in a form of an honored position. Be proud.

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Yes, pretend they aren't there (i did that just tonight and it went over splendidly). Plus, you're in a form of an honored position. Be proud.

True and it will make me a stronger person as well.

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I don't necessarily know about that.

Hmmm. I'm pretty sure its going to hurt that night, but if I don't go, I will feel weak. I need to stop running from her.

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Hmmm. I'm pretty sure its going to hurt that night, but if I don't go, I will feel weak. I need to stop running from her.

 

It is not weakness to not do what is good for you.

 

If a General pulls his troops back because he realizes sending them forward would lead them into a slaughter, is that weakness?

 

You need to stop being motivated by the appearance of weakness. who gives a **** bro.

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Just go thinking that she will not be there. You are going to have to face your fears. Hopefully you won't run into her, but if you do just play it cool. You've come a long way!

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It is not weakness to not do what is good for you.

 

If a General pulls his troops back because he realizes sending them forward would lead them into a slaughter, is that weakness?

 

You need to stop being motivated by the appearance of weakness. who gives a **** bro.

Yes, but its my sister. If I don't go she will walk alone on the field. My family will give a ****.

 

And the Russians believe that retreating was weakness. That's why officers were order to shoot retreating troops during WW2. That's also why the kicked the German's ***, but I'm not

Russian.

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Just go thinking that she will not be there. You are going to have to face your fears. Hopefully you won't run into her, but if you do just play it cool. You've come a long way!

I won't run into her. She can't leave the stands until 3rd quarter and by that time I'll be gone.

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