ustam67 Posted February 28, 2004 Share Posted February 28, 2004 i am really looking for a friend with some guidance and help as i have been in a terrible rut for quite some time and i dont know how to get out of it. i am just going to be very open: my girlfriend is somewhat willing to let me take naked photos of her. this really is exciting to me... and over a year or so i have built up quite an archive. for some reason, i dont know why, i would go into chat rooms, pretending to be a girl and send the pictures to random men, in exchange for them sending a picture/movie back of them masterbating to it. i made sure to crop the photo so you could only see genitals, and definitely not her "identity" if you want to call it that... i did this a few times and i felt really sick afterword. so eventually i stopped. my guilty mind started to accumulate behind me and eventually i had to tell her to easy my mind somewhat. what i told her was a minimal version of the truth. i said that i had pretended to be a girl in a chatroom just fooling around and that i had sent a picture of her butt (where you could kind of see her privates) to one individual. she was upset, but when she saw how devastated i was by my mistake, she forgave me. 2 months have gone by, i've lost 20 pounds due to depression and i havent really been able to forgive myself. i take full responsibility for my actions and i have prayed to everyone for forgiveness and i KNOW i could never do this again. how can i feel better about myself? am i a totally deranged individual. i really feel like i love my girlfriend more than anything in the world, and i dont know how i could have ever done something so horrible. thanks for any help/advice in advance. Link to post Share on other sites
Tony T Posted February 28, 2004 Share Posted February 28, 2004 Just forget it...forgive yourself...let it go. Everybody does something goofy now and then, although I must say you're in the top five percent of imaginative people. Your girlfriend has forgiven you so just forget about it. Let's hope you don't think up anything even more radical to try. I think you've learned your lesson. Next time you may not get off so easily. There are a LOT of women who would have sent you on your way. You've got a forgiving lady with you. Treasure that and celebrate a new day. Link to post Share on other sites
sami Posted February 28, 2004 Share Posted February 28, 2004 As long as you are both ready to forget and forgive, that is all you you want to do now. Just try to forget about it and go on with your life. Link to post Share on other sites
Dejin Posted February 28, 2004 Share Posted February 28, 2004 Sounds like you're in a pretty big depression. Perhaps clinical. If you can't get out of your rut much longer, it would be wise to consider a councilor to sort out your feelings. As far as what you did - You know your act was wrong. She forgives you, so its alright. There's no need to dwell over it anymore, you've punished yourself enough. Just remember how you feel/felt, so you don't make the same (or similar) mistakes in the future. Link to post Share on other sites
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