SummerLady Posted October 8, 2010 Share Posted October 8, 2010 Ok so I said before I have an eating disorder. Wanted advice feedback from anyone on here that has this. I have gained about 7 pounds, still working out. I have noticed that my stomach actually looks better which is way weird. I was so thin before that the skin didn't look right and now it looks better. Boobs are bigger. Waist is to big though up to a 27 I love 24 easier to get dressed. I am still working out. I want to beat this but I have been doing this since I was 16 I am 39. I am 5'3 and I weigh 115. Any help would be appreciated. Not sure if I should go to my MD or a psychologist. I am just tired of it all, need to get off this roller coaster. Wondering If I need mental meds...Thanks! Link to post Share on other sites
tman666 Posted October 8, 2010 Share Posted October 8, 2010 I would definitely look into some psychological therapy at this point. Your height and weight do not warrant any sort of obsession. I think you need to take a hard look at how you're viewing yourself and be realistic about needing some professional help... Don't view therapy as a failing on your part. View it as part of your training. There's a saying in the fitness world: "Train your weaknesses". Your weakness, far and above all else, is how you're viewing yourself. Get some help so you can eventually be happy. Link to post Share on other sites
Author SummerLady Posted October 8, 2010 Author Share Posted October 8, 2010 I would definitely look into some psychological therapy at this point. Your height and weight do not warrant any sort of obsession. I think you need to take a hard look at how you're viewing yourself and be realistic about needing some professional help... Don't view therapy as a failing on your part. View it as part of your training. There's a saying in the fitness world: "Train your weaknesses". Your weakness, far and above all else, is how you're viewing yourself. Get some help so you can eventually be happy. You may be right, I always wanted to be tall and thin. I am short and somewhat thin. I don't accept myself for who I am overall. My SO loves my body and I am like huh? Low self esteem, perfectionist, type A personality, competitve, feel unworthy. I am shocked when men hit on me most of the time. I am never good enough and when I am good enough I still complain..I am aware. How sad really. Link to post Share on other sites
SouthernSunshine Posted October 9, 2010 Share Posted October 9, 2010 Not to detour your post, but I think my friend is bulimic. He's always pulling at his stomach talking about how fat he is, and he likes/dates heavy women. He has an air freshener in every room, and when I opened his fridge he had large water bottles and gatorade backed up. He reuses the water bottles too. The only food he had in the fridge was yogurt, and bananas on the counter. When we go out to eat he never finishes his meal, instead he gets it to go. He's fascinated with food though, always talking about it. Very strange. Link to post Share on other sites
Leigh 87 Posted October 10, 2010 Share Posted October 10, 2010 Hey there, my fellow perfectionist. I am about 5 ' 5 - 5 ' 6, and 118 ish lbs. I know I am not fat, but the fact I strive for perfection, means I developed an eating disorder, years ago. I am physically healthy now and do not restrict calories, but the more you think about food, your body, and your weight, the more you will want to rebell against it all - through binging - it is a way of saying " TO HELL WITH THIS* I had a binge eating problem. Many people do, and it is nothing to be ashamed of. Basscially, the less you let food rule your life and dictate your moods, the less you will need to binge. Also, you have to try not to fill the void sin your life through binging and using food. If you are under weight for your body type, which you can deterimine if you have to restrict to maintain your weight, then you will binge; if you do not give your body enough food on a daily basis, your body will make you feel like shoving a lot of food in. To combat binging, you have to address the psychological and physiological things that trigger your binging. If you eat enough for your body, if you eat a wide enough variety of food groups, and you are NOT at constant war with food, and lastly, that you try to engage in activities and keep yourself busy so tghat you are not wading meaninglessly and needing to fill a void with food. Link to post Share on other sites
Author SummerLady Posted October 10, 2010 Author Share Posted October 10, 2010 I see your points. Recently I have been depressed so my eating disorder has showed it's ugly head. I assume previously I was under eating. I like my body at a certain weight so when I go above that weight i am not real happy. Thanks for the feed back. Glad to see their are others put there with similar issues. Seems no one ever talks about this one specifically. Link to post Share on other sites
Leigh 87 Posted October 10, 2010 Share Posted October 10, 2010 I do not like my body going above a certain weight, either. The different is, in the past, my standard was too high; 114 lbs was my LIMIT, which is low for my build ( large boobs and a butt). So I binged as a form of rebellion. I was not starving myself, but my standard WAS too high ( that I would not accept myself above 114 lbs). Noww, I would not go above 119, which is much more reasonable; I have stopped binging as a result. Because i am not enforcing such strict standards. If I lose a lb, great, but if not, at least I can maintain my weight on normal enough amounts of food, so that I have no need to binge. Try to maintain your weight on AT LEEAST the recommendations; they r too low for some people, but most calorir calculators will give you an appropriate enough amount for your size, so that you will not feel hungry enough to binge. I would not go below 1500 calories for your hight and size. At all. Link to post Share on other sites
Author SummerLady Posted October 10, 2010 Author Share Posted October 10, 2010 I do not like my body going above a certain weight, either. The different is, in the past, my standard was too high; 114 lbs was my LIMIT, which is low for my build ( large boobs and a butt). So I binged as a form of rebellion. I was not starving myself, but my standard WAS too high ( that I would not accept myself above 114 lbs). Noww, I would not go above 119, which is much more reasonable; I have stopped binging as a result. Because i am not enforcing such strict standards. If I lose a lb, great, but if not, at least I can maintain my weight on normal enough amounts of food, so that I have no need to binge. Try to maintain your weight on AT LEEAST the recommendations; they r too low for some people, but most calorir calculators will give you an appropriate enough amount for your size, so that you will not feel hungry enough to binge. I would not go below 1500 calories for your hight and size. At all. I was averaging 800-1200 calories a day, at that I can maintain 105-107 weight...Low huh? Link to post Share on other sites
Cee Posted October 10, 2010 Share Posted October 10, 2010 I have binge eating disorder too. And I restricted and overexercised too. I will go through periods of restriction (500-800 calories in a day) and periods of binge eating (upwards of 3,000 calories in one binge). I went for treatment at Renfrew Center, which is one the best clinics in the country. Insurance paid for it too. Thanks to treatment, I am so much better. But it is still a battle and I still go through binge episodes. I would suggest checking out the posts at somethingfishy.org & they have a treatment finder. But read their rules- you are not allowed to post calorie counts or weights on the site b/c it may be a trigger. Link to post Share on other sites
Lauriebell82 Posted October 11, 2010 Share Posted October 11, 2010 (edited) I have binge eating disorder too. And I restricted and overexercised too. I will go through periods of restriction (500-800 calories in a day) and periods of binge eating (upwards of 3,000 calories in one binge). Yes, this is what I did as well. OP, do you have episodes such as these? I'm still recovering as well, but I actually have not binged in 10 years. I've overeaten but never went back to that. I refuse to let myself do it, even if I'm tempted. I know that it will just make me miserable and I will feel horrible so that stops me. You sound like you have more of a psychological obsession/disorder, as 115 lbs being 5'3 is not overweight at all! But I will be the first one to testify that it doesn't work that way when you have an obsession/disorder. I would suggest counseling, or a support group. Both of those really helped me, especially the support group. Edited October 11, 2010 by Lauriebell82 Link to post Share on other sites
Author SummerLady Posted October 11, 2010 Author Share Posted October 11, 2010 Yes, this is what I did as well. OP, do you have episodes such as these? I'm still recovering as well, but I actually have not binged in 10 years. I've overeaten but never went back to that. I refuse to let myself do it, even if I'm tempted. I know that it will just make me miserable and I will feel horrible so that stops me. You sound like you have more of a psychological obsession/disorder, as 115 lbs being 5'3 is not overweight at all! But I will be the first one to testify that it doesn't work that way when you have an obsession/disorder. I would suggest counseling, or a support group. Both of those really helped me, especially the support group. I am going through a hard time. I had not binged in some time and when the stress hits forget it.....ugh You are right not good to go back to not even once its like a druggie..really Link to post Share on other sites
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