how my 2nd chance went

[alwayshoping]

i know what your saying mate, but last time was easier because i worked away booked 2 weeks holiday spent a bomb, i cant do that now. i feel like she didn't hurt me enough the first time and maybe she is doing this saying to herself "go on then get over me now".

 

she came into my life took everything that was good and just walked out as thought to say "its not good enough for me"

 

i want her to feel like i do, but i know she isn't. when she was upset, in pain or hurting i would sort it out and make it better however i could. now its me in pain and hurting and she is laughin in my face.

 

i cant go out with old friends because they are her friends now, i cant go to the local pubs and get wasted because if she isn't there they will be and people will be asking questions and so on, i mean i dont know what she's told them.

 

i got a txt from her last week sayin she was hurting a bit but she was happy and feels like a better person, "even tho i left you" as though its some sort of trophy.

 

should i send her a certificate through saying "Congratulations you left Mr xxx xxxxx, heres a £5 voucher for McDonalds."

 

plus its not for me to tell my mate who he can/cant tx. she did this last time we split txtin the few good mates i have.

 

they are going to the racing next week, i would have loved to have gone, but i cant as she will be there with her friends and mine. its going to be hard when i do finally see her because we use to be so close, kissing, cuddling, holding hands and now i wont even be able to touch her.

 

she may have left you but you did everything you could right?

thats all you can ask of yourself. The girl of your dreams will love you for what you can do, and also what you cannot do. She is not that person. Ive lost friends after this breakup but guess what, i dont care. She can have them because they were not the people i thought they were.

 

If your anything like me, perhaps youve realised a friend who was not so close to you when you guys dated, is alot closer now? they are the people you should cling onto. At the end of the day she has hurt you by leaving you and not appreciating you as a person. She may say she is happy but sooner or later you will be the grass that looks greener. Just worry about yourself.

 

Try going out and doing something new? meet some new people. Your life is what you make it, and if seeing her will upset you then try not too for now. But dont let that stop you living your life. Afterall remember the boy who used to be single before he got with his gf. He was so amazing she actually stayed with him for 2 years. Now she has taken everything and left you to rot. Its time to bring him back to life and show her that in time your amazing personality and morals will attract a girl 1000 times the girl she will ever be.

 

I know its hard seeing her (i cant imagine what that would be like) but its time to just think of you and try get the friends you trust around you. I know you cant tell you freind not to text her but guess what, you shouldnt have too. If they really knew how nice you were then they would have done it for you. So be friends with them, just make sure you dont tell them how you feel, trust me, it will get back to her.

 

Try find some new people to chill will and try experimenting with some new social groups. It will make you feel better! i joined this club at uni last night and the people were so nice, they really just wanted to have a laugh and for a single second i forgot about my ex. Best feeling ever. so be strong and remember what your best freinds tell you because its always true:

 

You can do better.

She didnt love you as much as you loved her otherwise she wouldnt have done this to you.

If she made a mistake she would be begging you take her back by now so were is she?

She is going out for her. So she can pull.

You need to be selfish now. Do things because you want to.

Not because it would be something she liked/disliked or because you initially did it for her.

Its time to really try and see the good in this world because you are one of those things. She is not. So hopefully even though you see her round, you wont see her properly as she is not one of the good things this world has to offer you.

 

I hope this helps man and that we both manage to find ways to be happy.

[alwayshoping]

ps let them mention her in passing. Just make sure you start living your life to the max. Before you know it people will be mentioning you to her! oh god did you hear what happened to (insert you name here) last night! and she will eventually get to go through what you have but by then hopefully you will be well over her and moved to a better place (not literally lol).