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[jerbear]

In the last 3 weeks, I have been having insomnia and sleepless nights.

 

The last few events to happen in my life is I'm bored at work and not challenged. Had a short 3 week fling been hanging around the old flame about once a week and talk briefly on the phone.

 

I also bought a house within the last few months. I think buying the house was the best thing (and worse) thing to happen to me. It helped me ground me and figure out what I want. It really is not what I want career wise, where I want to be, and who I want to be with. It sucks to have to have this hit you all at the same time.

 

The last time this happened was when I finished by graduate degree, got a job and two years later bored at work or life in general.

 

I feel that I need more goals, i.e. entrepreneurship or join a startup or love life.

 

Right now I feel I have no idea where I'm heading or what I want to do. This year I've been trying to figure out what to do.

 

Any advice people?

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Property is a good investment. It's the mortgage that's a drag.

 

I don't know JerBear, do you feel like your life has become stunted? I feel like that's my life. Like there's all this possibility but you don't know where to start.

 

I thought you were going back to school? I think starting new hobbies is a good idea.

[jerbear]

Amazing what happens in a about a week. I guess I am pretty resilient.

 

I have an appointment with two counselors next week to start taking classes in Spring. Then get into another graduate program Fall 2011. Both my alma maters have pro's and con's. One of the con's is the ex is at one. The program is top 10 in the US; granted she is undergrad, I'll be going for grad.

 

I mailed the ex's stuff back. Yes it hurt a little but I was over it.

 

It also helps that I have a date with someone new and we kissed on the 2nd date yesterday. We have a date scheduled later this week. Still early but 2 dates/meetings in a week is a good thing.

 

The old flame is still around but she flaked out on doing something for Halloween. I called twice and she said she'll call back. I left it as it.

 

I'm moving forward and have an idea of what I want and how to get it.

Edited October 25, 2010 by jerbear
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[jerbear]

Property is a good investment. It's the mortgage that's a drag.

 

I don't know JerBear, do you feel like your life has become stunted? I feel like that's my life. Like there's all this possibility but you don't know where to start.

 

I thought you were going back to school? I think starting new hobbies is a good idea.

 

I do have a mortgage on the property. My life is not really stunted, just the career part is. It is like all this possibility but don't know where to start, what to do. I lost my moxi and passion for my current career.

 

Last weekend was a turning point, visited family, saw a faculty presentation and viola; I figured it out. Now my life is at a turning point. Go back to school to work on the entrepreneurial venture after false starts. It is not a guarantee. OR relocate and work on another path. This safer path will be ok but that entrepreneurial drive still beckons me.