why the hell we had to grow up?

[thatsonlyme]

I've been doing great lately, but little things still remind me that I'm not completely over.

 

My ex and I used to live with this family when we just came to united states, single mom with three kids, she supported our relationship from the very beginning because she knew how much we risked for each other.

 

Fast forward five years, we're still in great relationship with this family and mom asked me if I could take care of her kids for a few days while she's out of town. The kids have some activities at school this week and I wanted to take some pictures but I borrowed my camera to my ex. I called her today asking for the camera and explained her why I needed it ASAP, and she was like, "why didn't you tell me you're with them? I would like to see them too.". Long story short, she's coming over tomorrow so we can take kids out somewhere.

This itself could bring back lots of memories from the beginning of our relationship, but I figured I'm strong enough now and It won't shake me.

Well see about that, but something else shook me real bad.

 

The kids know that we're not together anymore, I guess mom told them. Today I drove one of the kids to the store and I told her "guess what who's coming over tomorrow?" She always loved my ex and was very fond of her, but she didn't seem too excited when I told her she's coming over. I asked her why and she responded "because it's kinda awkward, you guys are not together anymore". I told her it shouldn't be awkward to her if it's not awkward to us, and she said "but I wish you guys were together".

That almost made me cry!

Why kids are so innocent and honest? Why do we grow up? This kid will probably end up breaking hearts when she grows up!

 

That was just a moment of weakness though, I'm fine again. Just trying to keep my log on here. We'll see how tomorrow goes. Ultimate test of my strength. Yes, I'm glutton for punishment, thank you.