bobbydyllie Posted March 3, 2004 Share Posted March 3, 2004 posted here twice already, but I feel like doing it again anyway. I don't think I need to refresh, but I'll do it briefly. Got in a relationship with a girl who was absolutely crazy about me (maybe that just wore off?) and everything seemed fine. 'til she started having problems at home. I tried my very best but I couldn't drag the words out of her, and after a while she was acting like in a way where I should have dumped her because she was being so bad to me, but I couldn't of course, knowing how much I love her and what we have together. I only got the reasons for breaking up after a while, but not rest of course. She now says I was too dependant and she didn't like that (never noticed that before, she was even so as I, but being together in class, actually being together every day, makes you think that). She probably felt as if her freedom had been taken from her. But never told me this actually, and kept her problems for herself and then dumped me. But I've seen that this probably isn't the problem, she's just not mature enough, not ready for a serious relationship. She has also proven to be very shallow at some points, especially now. That is most likely to grow out of her with the age. She now acts like she hates me and I'm a bastard and as if I blame her for everything. I know where the problems are, and I don't blame her totally and I am not being a jerk to her, even though she acts like I am a window. Saying she is "99% over me" (I heard from a friend she is not completely over me) , and wants to "continue her life", she "wants a new lover without thinking about me", "leaving the past, everything from the past behind her". She also claims she was wrong about me, but the way I am now, is nothing more than what she made out of it, I feel like she is hating me for everything. I know she tries to block all she ever felt, and especially block previous feelings and memories. At least I tried everything that was in my reach, before, during and after. Something she can't say, but probably will. She probably clean hates me and wants me to forever bail out of her life, maybe even that I was never in it. Maybe all that she says is what she wants to be, not what is. I know she was great, I miss who she was. But I still think why do I deserve this? I've been the best I could be for her. I hope some day she will see what was, and what is true and what could have been (she'll probably never consider that last one). She probably still needs to learn what love is exactly, and that's more than feeling in love and romance... I feel as I deserve someone better, but I have no need of finding that someone, my heart remains strewn over the floor... Thanks for reading I'd say, I'm glad I can type this thing here, knowing that someone will read it, not having to keep it all to myself. salutes, bobbydyllie Link to post Share on other sites
look forward Posted March 3, 2004 Share Posted March 3, 2004 bobbydyllie I am sorry for your pain all i can say is give yourself time to heal and get over this girl, you do deserve better and you will get better dont worry about that. Just have comfort in knowing that you are a good person its this girls loss and once you feel ready you'll meet somone who is worthy of your good nature.. Love and hugs to you Link to post Share on other sites
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