Thanks for being around

[kittie s.]

So for the past week or so I've been fighting off some frustrating insecurities and nagging worries again.I decided it was time to come back and talk to people that understand this mess.Now that I'm here,I feel like kicking myself.

 

I read some of your problems and some situations that have been posted seem completely unbearable.I am not even sure what made me feel like I have a real problem,but I know most of you understand the nagging insecurities and worries that sometimes come out of nowhere.

 

Your SO can say one thing that your brain picks out later on in the day to analyze 800 times,resulting in your questioning if he/she is thinking of ending things for some reason that doesn't make any sense to anyone around you.You begin to understand that's crazy talk..Then again,how can you be sure it isn't going to happen? YOU CAN'T. I am sitting here trying my best to reassure myself that everything is okay,we're just having a few off-days where we don't click.That time comes and goes,maybe even tomorrow we'll be back to normal.But until then,my days feel numbered with my SO and I can't figure out what I can do when I am hundreds of miles away from the place I need to be.I can't vent to my friends about it,because they don't really understand how we're dealing with LDR in the first place.I can't ask my SO for constant reassurance,because the amount I apparently need is ridiculous.lol.

 

It's just really nice to be able to come to a place where you fit right in with your unusual situation,where people are there for you,and where they make you realize that it isn't as bad as you think,because we're all going through it and no one here is alone.Everyone has those insecure moments and we all need someone to talk to along with our SO's.Otherwise,we'd drive our SO's crazy,as they would us.

 

I thank all of you for your individual stories and posting your vulnerable posts,because if we didn't share,we would all be sitting there feeling completely lost in this world full of distance.I can guarantee that I was not built for an LDR,but it happened anyways.I have two options:stay with my SO and continue fighting the insecurities or give up.Giving up is not an option to me,so I am having to force myself to grow in a way where these worries about our relationship can't overcome who I am and what we have.

 

I'm sorry about this long post,but I felt like I needed to say it before I went to sleep.You guys are awesome.

[folieadeux]

Hi Kittie, I'm new here and don't know any specifics about your LDR. What kind of distance are you and your SO dealing with?

 

This site is definitely a great resource for sure. My only regret is not joining sooner. It really is comforting knowing you're not the only one dealing with "unusual" circumstances in a relationship. I don't know anyone in my day to day life who's dealing with distance so my support system is rather limited (not because people don't want to help, but just because they really don't know how to). Glad you've found some comfort here too.