jealous or not?

[purplelily1013]

So I had been talking off and on with a guy since April. He would seem into me, then withdraw. Then come back, then withdraw. It was so confusing. From what I understood, being a single mother, cute but also looking for something stable and consistent in my life..he felt pressured by that as much as he said he liked me. Told me he was getting too old to take risks and that he was interested but cautious. So Im fine with that and went on my way.

 

Well then after a few months we met back up, and went to dinner. Had a great time. A lot of laughing, touching, good conversation and definitely a connection. He text the next day saying it was really nice to see me. I was happy at how things went.

 

Then, no follow up date, limited contact. Then a few weeks go by and he ended up inviting me over for dinner. Now it had been seven months since I first went out with him. He was always a gentleman but affectionate. Well this night he was all over me and we ended up sleeping together. It was great and a while later I went home. I thought now that we finally got physical things would start to be more consistent. I was wrong.

 

I got very little contact from him since and I was very hurt. I felt used and discarded. He isn't a "player" and he is hardworking very good guy. But he is so back and forth with me.

 

So I finally sent him a text saying I was confused. I said are we still in friend mode? He sent a text back saying, I dont know what mode I am in right now and that is the honest truth. So then we eventually talked on the phone and he said, " i honestly feel we are better off as friends for the moment. Are you ok with that?"

 

Of course I wasnt, but I said I understood and to take care. Was not going to make a big deal about it. So that was last week when he told me that and I have had no contact with him since. I miss him, I was sad, but Ill be fine.

 

So I move on in just a week and go on a date last night with a nice attractive man. And believe it or not, we were seated diagnolly across from this guy. I was in shock but tried to play oblivious and enjoy my date. Well I caught him looking at me several time, I am sure he was so surprised to see me. He was having dinner with a buddy at the bar while I was right there dressed to kill, and on a date.

 

I got up to use the restroom and he kept his head down, I dont know if he knew I saw him or not. Several times during the dinner I would glance he was looking. He eventually left and my date ended shortly after.

 

My question is this.. What the heck could be going through his mind? I dont expect anything...but I have to say, I am somewhat glad he saw me out enjoying myself as he was always so confident that I was crazy about him and he could have me whenever. I am wondering even though he just wanted to be friends, do you think he would be affected at all? Maybe not, but I still feel like I got the last word!! Even though I miss his company and our conversations. Thoughts??