Don_da_Ho Posted December 22, 2010 Share Posted December 22, 2010 Sounds like you're getting a handle on it. No, you would not want to be divorced with kids in five years. If you think you're life's tough now ..... The divorce rate for couples under 28 is like 80%. Even IF you got back together, married and had kids, the odds are not good. Plus she sounds way too mixed up. Link to post Share on other sites
Author alimpo83 Posted December 23, 2010 Author Share Posted December 23, 2010 Yes, I guess you're right. Even it's hard like hell, it's better this way. Rationally, I know she's way too mixed up to even bother, it's emotionally I still have bounds. But they got to disappear, soon! Thanks again. Link to post Share on other sites
Don_da_Ho Posted December 23, 2010 Share Posted December 23, 2010 Yes, but to some degree you choose to have those emotions by your thoughts. The more you believe she's mixed up, it won't change, it won't work out, it's not the right person, the less emotions you will start to feel. Link to post Share on other sites
Author alimpo83 Posted December 24, 2010 Author Share Posted December 24, 2010 Since the last time we've spoken, I'm not having that hard time continuing NC. But today, Christmas and all, memories of our last two ones seem to pop my mind on a regular basis, which I didn't want to. I'm struggling not to call her or say something, so I've decided to post something here to let some steam off. Merry Christmas to you all! Everyone is supporting me and I'm getting there! If someone doesn't want you when you are feeling bad as s***, they don't deserve you when you are at your best. And I will be! Sooner than she thinks! Link to post Share on other sites
Author alimpo83 Posted December 28, 2010 Author Share Posted December 28, 2010 The past few days have been passable, with the usual ups and downs. But today I woke up feeling like crap! Damn! Link to post Share on other sites
PowerOfOne Posted December 28, 2010 Share Posted December 28, 2010 I'm with ya mate. I was right on top of things in the week leading up to christmas. She got back into town after a month on Christmas Eve. Since then I've been feeling pretty crappy. Not as bad as the first week but still not great. I'm really looking forward to the new year and getting back to work. That'll keep my mind busy. 2011 is going to be a bumper year! I can leave the ***** that was 2010 behind and never look back! That's the plan anyway. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted December 28, 2010 Share Posted December 28, 2010 Your not on your own mate, I'm sure the majority of us felt this way through Christmas eve and day, I felt top boss before this holiday rolled around, Still thought of her every day but felt like I could just push on and get over it then she contacted me on Christmas day, Bought me very nice presents and I wound up ringing her to thank her, THE BIGGEST MISTAKE I HAD EVER MADE, I should of stayed clear like I did when I went no contact. Ringing her only brought me back to the sound of her voice and thinking of the times we shared, How she felt and looked when she'd stand right infront of me and hold on to me tightly, How it felt to know I had a little family by my side then I thought of the more painful side, The people she spends her time with now, The fact that I'm no longer a part of her life when at one point I was the biggest part of her life, The thought of somebody taking my place was the hardest to cope with especially after being her first for everything. Unfortunately we have to stick to the fact that there's nothing we can do, We can only take pride out of the fact that we did all we could do to keep them around even if they left anyway, All we can do is work on ourselves and give them absoluely nothing, Since there gone that's what they deserve. Right now I'm redeeming my strength little by little and when I think of her now I know she's not the same person I once loved, It's like homebrew said, Our ex's aren't the same people anymore and they have some growing up to do, It was more down to the commitment than the people we are so let's not take it so personal and have pity on them rather than ourselves for the situation we've been put in. Link to post Share on other sites
Author alimpo83 Posted January 4, 2011 Author Share Posted January 4, 2011 (edited) We have to take pride on what we've done, yes. I've done all I could for the relation to work, wanted to work together and such. It certainly didn't brake on my side. I had a cool new year night with my new girlfriend (she knows everything, but she likes me and I like her, we're living good times together) and I thought sometimes of my ex. But she's the one who has to try and come back to me, but the truth is, I don't know her. On Christmas eve, I sent an email to everyone on my mail box (including her) and she responded through her company mail, with an email that she sends to her store clients. No respect, or even education. She has to grow up, a lot. Thanks for the comments mates! Edited January 4, 2011 by alimpo83 Link to post Share on other sites
Author alimpo83 Posted January 5, 2011 Author Share Posted January 5, 2011 As some days are worse than others, i'm posting something here. I've been living my life on a more or less cool way, in the past weeks. But yesterday, I went to my hotmail, and in the "social" part, there she was, with a new photo, with her girlfriends and her boyfriends. She was hugging her all time friend, a guy which I always treated like a friend too, but when we broke up, he didn't even add me on facebook, and started posting comments on her mural, saying she was great and badabadabada. All this to say that I felt that bad sensation when looking at the photo, even for a couple of seconds, that chest pain! Link to post Share on other sites
Author alimpo83 Posted January 5, 2011 Author Share Posted January 5, 2011 She broke NC. We haven't spoken since I tried the final get together, on the beginning of December. She told me we really needed space and all. She started a conversation in gmail, wishing me a happy new year and such. I responded in a educated way, nothing more. Then when we said goodbye, she wrote: "kiss (when you want to...please tell me something)" I didn't answer. She didn't want to see me less than a month ago, and now she wouldn't mind? I won't give her that, for sure. Being with her at this point, would take me to day one again! Thanks but no thanks! Link to post Share on other sites
Author alimpo83 Posted January 8, 2011 Author Share Posted January 8, 2011 Now sometimes when I enter gmail or hotmail, less than a minute later she comes online. It's strange but it happened like 2 or 3 times in gmail and hotmail in the past few days! Like she's waiting I'll talk to her! Link to post Share on other sites
Author alimpo83 Posted January 11, 2011 Author Share Posted January 11, 2011 Another day, I'm living each one as a small step to being happy again! There is hope for everyone! Don't dwell too much on the past and try to live a brighter future! Link to post Share on other sites
Author alimpo83 Posted January 12, 2011 Author Share Posted January 12, 2011 Today I woke up from a dream from where I was taking her bra off... F***! Some days are really really hard to pass by, it's a bit like hell! Damn! It's been a couple of months, I feel better but still not over it. Link to post Share on other sites
PowerOfOne Posted January 12, 2011 Share Posted January 12, 2011 One day at a time mate. Some days are going to be worse then others and you just have to ride it out. Believe that tomorrow will be better. Hang in there! Link to post Share on other sites
Author alimpo83 Posted January 14, 2011 Author Share Posted January 14, 2011 Damn, I need to find a way to be "cured" faster! Sometimes seems like I'm loosing it! Damn! Link to post Share on other sites
Author alimpo83 Posted January 16, 2011 Author Share Posted January 16, 2011 Damn! I opened facebook and saw her 31st december photos, very friendly with a guy, laughing and such, very near.. She's probably flirting and having sex with him, yet she stays single. I WANT TO PUKE! DAMN! Today she told me she wanted to be my friend and blablabla... DAMN, I WANT TO PUKE! Link to post Share on other sites
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