monkey Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Today, is a day of clarity for me. I feel for once i can't go on thinking & expecting that she will call me & want me back. She knows i suffer an illness of anxiety that i can't help & that her talk of being my "FRIEND" is obviously not true & that she "CARES" is obviously not true either, or else she would contact me & see how my therapy is going etc. A friend of mine with a health prob, i would call & see if they were ok, never mind someone who i have spent 15months of love, sex & loyalty with. Yes i still love her, because of the memories that i have, but don't want to think of, because they upset me & i can't understand how we are, as we are, like how her parents adopted me as a second son.! Funny how peoples minds work, if not mine.! I know that there are girls out there that will want the love & respect & loyalty that i can give them & romance also, but they may understand i have a health problem that isn't my fault & take it as part of me. People don't understand this unconditional love that i can give, but i can't change their views. So i carry on with my life & no-doubt at times when this happens, when all roads are blocked & mabe i find someone better, she may come back, then what!?. I do love her as i say & her happy face is in my heart forever & when i think of it i get a tear in my eye. But all i can do is leave her.. I tried my hardest, she knows my feelings & thats it. A tear is i my eye! Link to post Share on other sites
meanon Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Good for you Monkey Link to post Share on other sites
dario Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 That's the ticket, man. You can do this and we'll help you in all that you need. Strength is the key and you're taking that step. Link to post Share on other sites
caretoo Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 You sound soooooo much better. Calmer and more mature now. You are on your way! Link to post Share on other sites
lilvoyce7321 Posted April 11, 2004 Share Posted April 11, 2004 I like how just because my opinion is different from others, it seems to be edited! What is up with that??? Will this get edited to? I don't see anything wrong with this comment. I do not believe in catering or enabling anyone. -lilvoyce (Just a difference in opinion) Link to post Share on other sites
Tony T Posted April 11, 2004 Share Posted April 11, 2004 Now I do know it's Easter and I got up real early and ate a basketfull of chocolate so my consciousness may be severely impaired, but for the life of me I don't understand your post above or its relevance to this thread, this forum or 9/11. Exactly what did you know prior to 9/11? I also think catering is essential at weddings and enables people to eat well at many other special events. Link to post Share on other sites
moimeme Posted April 11, 2004 Share Posted April 11, 2004 Maybe Monkey got fed up with his situation, got a sex change, and has returned as lilvoyce? Link to post Share on other sites
Tony T Posted April 11, 2004 Share Posted April 11, 2004 "Maybe Monkey got fed up with his situation, got a sex change, and has returned as lilvoyce?" That's actually not the case but I'm not ruling out telephathy and/or mind control. Link to post Share on other sites
lilvoyce7321 Posted April 11, 2004 Share Posted April 11, 2004 I had given my opinion on one of Monkey's posts. He has had over 60 posts and still can't figure out that he (might be) xxxxxxxxxx. Monkey needs to know that he might have a serious problem and that if he does not get help he might find himself in a serious predicament. I don't think I said anything so terrible. I am not going to cater or feed his illness, and I do not think that love shack should either. -lilvoyce Link to post Share on other sites
lilvoyce7321 Posted April 11, 2004 Share Posted April 11, 2004 Originally posted by moimeme Maybe Monkey got fed up with his situation, got a sex change, and has returned as lilvoyce? wouldn't he be lucky?!?!!! Link to post Share on other sites
moimeme Posted April 11, 2004 Share Posted April 11, 2004 lilvoyce, you're not the first LSer to have suggested to him that he needed help and that he had a serious problem. Not to worry. That base was more than adequately covered. Link to post Share on other sites
Tamara Posted April 12, 2004 Share Posted April 12, 2004 Hello there, I realize your message was written some time ago. But, I just found this site and immediately registered today because I found this very helpful in the problems I'm going through right now. I've posted a couple questions today. My husband left me a note shortly after our 1st anniversary. He knew I had problems with anxiety and am currently treated for severe scoliosis too w/strong medication. He said I lied about the medications the doctor is giving me. I've never done such a thing and can't think of a reason why I should. This is not the first time. Every time the going got tough, he got going. I often used to wonder how he could do this to me, instead of facing the situation and resolving them. He knew how I felt emotionally (something that cannot be helped, as yourself) and my back pain, hence my medications. So, how could he just pick up and leave like that and every time? Why, if he is supposed to be the better off inidivual was I the one to try to keep things together? Granted, he'd complain I'd respond in the most disagreeable manner too, but he said he'd understand before we got married about my problems. Then, when it came down to it, he really doesn't. Thank you for reminding me about that. Reminding me of something so simple, that if a "friend" had a health problem, I would call and see if they were ok. No matter what the situation. Tearfully, Tamara. Link to post Share on other sites
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