W...W...WTF just happened?

[awkward]

 

Please don't make me tell you what I did. Just wait, I'm sure I'll be here next week crying/hollering/swearing about it. :/

 

So sorry INF. I hope that it's not going to be too painful. You are one of my favorite posters on this site. I loved your back the truck up thread.

[ItsNeverForever]

So sorry INF. I hope that it's not going to be too painful. You are one of my favorite posters on this site. I loved your back the truck up thread.

 

LOL! Thanks for the compliment, Awk! :smile:

 

Interestingly, when I imagine the outcome of today's "festivities" & any more that might occur before the week's up, pain is not the sensation I predict, more likely just a bunch of anger with myself. *buckling up*

[Fieldsofgold]

LOL! Thanks for the compliment, Awk! :smile:

 

Interestingly, when I imagine the outcome of today's "festivities" & any more that might occur before the week's up, pain is not the sensation I predict, more likely just a bunch of anger with myself. *buckling up*

 

We'll be here for ya.

[Ellin]

Yup, and I still love him despite all that so I guess there really is something to that control thing huh? Don't get me wrong, I have control over the ability to walk away, but I don't have control to just tell my heart stop it! Everything else is blatant choice.

So well said! I tried to express it before but couldn't find such good words for it.

 

This is why I say that going NC doesn't necessarily mean one will be happy or even happier. We read stories on this forum when people seem not to have made any significant progress after months, sometimes years of NC.

[bentnotbroken]

So well said! I tried to express it before but couldn't find such good words for it.

 

This is why I say that going NC doesn't necessarily mean one will be happy or even happier. We read stories on this forum when people seem not to have made any significant progress after months, sometimes years of NC.

 

 

Or after years of being an AP. That's what makes this place so great. Everybody is represented here.

[LakesideDream]

Much like the juvenile behavior of one can't help who they love whether they are married or not..... or some such equally silly nonsense. I guess it depends on which lens of the juvenile glasses you are looking through.

 

 

BnB.. I haven't been around for awhile.. maybe I'm back to visitor status, however....... what makes loving someone a juvenile behavior? What one does can be juvenile, or it can be honorable. There are people in this world who love someone who is married .. that behave well.

 

Love is a rare commodity. It don't ignore it when you find it. Sadly sometimes ignoring love after you have found it is the only thing an honorable person can do.

[bentnotbroken]

BnB.. I haven't been around for awhile.. maybe I'm back to visitor status, however....... what makes loving someone a juvenile behavior? What one does can be juvenile, or it can be honorable. There are people in this world who love someone who is married .. that behave well.

 

Love is a rare commodity. It don't ignore it when you find it. Sadly sometimes ignoring love after you have found it is the only thing an honorable person can do.

 

 

Loving someone isn't juvenile. I said that because there are the juvenile actions that accompany those who use the excuse I couldn't help it. You can help what feelings you feed and nurture. If you sit around like a preteen adolescent pining for someone else's spouse...I do indeed consider it juvenile. Like I said it all depends on which juvenile lens you choose to look through. Nice to see you LSD.

[pureinheart]

This is so true. All relationships go through ups and downs. I think it's important to remember that it takes two people to make or break a relationship. Relationships happen sometimes whether we are looking for them or not, marriages end, things change.

 

Karma, I like what you said that you "have control over the ability to walk away, but I don't have control to just tell my heart to stop it!" I couldn't agree with this more.

 

 

Yep........

[LakesideDream]

Loving someone isn't juvenile. I said that because there are the juvenile actions that accompany those who use the excuse I couldn't help it. You can help what feelings you feed and nurture. If you sit around like a preteen adolescent pining for someone else's spouse...I do indeed consider it juvenile. Like I said it all depends on which juvenile lens you choose to look through. Nice to see you LSD.

 

 

BnB... I certainly don't "pine". I don't believe that I'm "Juvenile". That being said I stand by my statement. I am cursed to be a guy who only loves (is attracted to) one person at a time. It's been rough. Probably won't get better. I'm pretty used to it now.

[bentnotbroken]

BnB... I certainly don't "pine". I don't believe that I'm "Juvenile". That being said I stand by my statement. I am cursed to be a guy who only loves (is attracted to) one person at a time. It's been rough. Probably won't get better. I'm pretty used to it now.

 

 

I can completely respect your view. And I stand by my statement. If you aren't one of those who sits around dreaming up some wonderful life with their soul mate if they could only get them to see the error of remaining with oh so wrong spouse...then I of course I was not referring to you.

[LakesideDream]

I can completely respect your view. And I stand by my statement. If you aren't one of those who sits around dreaming up some wonderful life with their soul mate if they could only get them to see the error of remaining with oh so wrong spouse...then I of course I was not referring to you.

 

BnB... Ah.. OK. Rest assured I'm not delusional. Additionally I wouldn't put myself through that kind of emotional agony. There is a difference between reality and fantasy. I know the difference.