Odd Ball

[sbradford2]

Hi loveshack family. I have a situation. Okay for starters I was always the odd child in my family growing up. My mom actually told me that she knew she was going to have problems with me because of her difficult pregnancy. (As if that was suppose to make me feel any better). Well I can remember always being pushed away as a child and I turned out to be very mean because of it. I still get that way now.

 

Now that I am an adult I still face insecurities and have a hard time with my self esteem because of being left out so much. My family would plan things and not even invite me. And then when I find out, they make up some sort of excuse like "noone can never get in contact with you" or "we never see you". Now true enough I only visit my parents once a week on Sundays but they still exclude me out. I have talked to them about this more than once and alot of times when they do invite me I feel that its out of guilt because they feel that I am going to find out and get mad.

 

Well tonight I went over to my moms to let my children spend the night because I have to work tomorrow and noone was there. So I called and they said that they were all at a restaurant having dinner for my niece's B-day. I didn't even bother to ask why was I not invited. I have been thinking about moving closer to my family (I only live about 20 mins away) because when I need help with my children they are all that I have. But now I am really wondering if I should even make that move. I am just wondering what would someone else do in this situation. Would you move closer to your family if they treated you like this even though you may need their help at times with the kids? Oh let me add that they never visit me at all. They have been to my apartment only once in 3 years.