Prayers and insight needed

[valdeetz1]

This is a rather long story...and I dont want to scare anyone away.

 

It's about my relationship with my first love.

 

To start with- when we split up after highschool- 6 years ago and he came back(4months after), I asked God for a sign that we were meant to be together. I had been so hurt and I didn't want to be hurt like that again.

 

I left my house that morning, talking/praying and asking fro a sign. Leaves were all over my car, they blew off as I drove down the road, heading to school. It was 10 miles from the house I realized there was still a single leaf hanging out on the hood of my car. It wasnt raining or nothing- and I had been driving 40-60 miles an hour through out the trip. I watched it, wondering why it was there. Then I got out of town heading for school- going 70-80 mph for another 15 miles. So...for 25 miles in speeds of excess 70 mph at a majority of the trip this leaf stayed on the hood of my car. It only blew off when I stopped at a red light and a semi drove by.

 

I always thought that was my sign from God- that this was meant to be. So I took him back. And we've been together for a long time- we were going to get married this year. But he recently left me.

 

Back in September he had a bad accident- impaled and miraculously survived- everything missed his vital organs. God has a plan for him- I know. But the accident has sent him into a depression, and he's left me in December and he's got another girl now...

 

I know this is messed up- but I have never been a super religious person. I want to beleive that his accident and his trials now are tests from God for him, or us, or maybe the purpose we had together has been served.

 

I just keep praying to God to help him get better, to help him see his purpose and guide him through his difficult times. And maybe if you guys can think of it- say a small prayer to help him too. Regardless of whether or not he decides to come back to me- I want him to be healed, for God to help the confusion in his heart and mind. Because he just seems so lost.

 

I am lost too- I feel like he has died. But I pray to God to get me through this, and I have to trust there is a good reason for me to be hurting so bad right now- that it will get better in the future.

 

Thanks for taking time to read this.

[2themoon&back]

This is a rather long story...and I dont want to scare anyone away.

 

It's about my relationship with my first love.

 

To start with- when we split up after highschool- 6 years ago and he came back(4months after), I asked God for a sign that we were meant to be together. I had been so hurt and I didn't want to be hurt like that again.

 

I left my house that morning, talking/praying and asking fro a sign. Leaves were all over my car, they blew off as I drove down the road, heading to school. It was 10 miles from the house I realized there was still a single leaf hanging out on the hood of my car. It wasnt raining or nothing- and I had been driving 40-60 miles an hour through out the trip. I watched it, wondering why it was there. Then I got out of town heading for school- going 70-80 mph for another 15 miles. So...for 25 miles in speeds of excess 70 mph at a majority of the trip this leaf stayed on the hood of my car. It only blew off when I stopped at a red light and a semi drove by.

 

I always thought that was my sign from God- that this was meant to be. So I took him back. And we've been together for a long time- we were going to get married this year. But he recently left me.

 

Back in September he had a bad accident- impaled and miraculously survived- everything missed his vital organs. God has a plan for him- I know. But the accident has sent him into a depression, and he's left me in December and he's got another girl now...

 

I know this is messed up- but I have never been a super religious person. I want to beleive that his accident and his trials now are tests from God for him, or us, or maybe the purpose we had together has been served.

 

I just keep praying to God to help him get better, to help him see his purpose and guide him through his difficult times. And maybe if you guys can think of it- say a small prayer to help him too. Regardless of whether or not he decides to come back to me- I want him to be healed, for God to help the confusion in his heart and mind. Because he just seems so lost.

 

I am lost too- I feel like he has died. But I pray to God to get me through this, and I have to trust there is a good reason for me to be hurting so bad right now- that it will get better in the future.

 

Thanks for taking time to read this.

 

You both will be in my prayers ... I am sorry you are hurting but at the same time you sound like you have faith on your side, so I know you will be fine ...

but I will pray for that as well.

 

(((hugs)))