I seem so out of place with my family sometimes!

[Reflection Of Beauty]

I DON'T KNOW Y BUT I CAN REMEMBER BEING YOUNG N THINKING I WAS BORN INTO THE WRONG FAMILY. I USED THE THINK I WAS SWITCHED AT BIRTH OR ADPOTED. I ALWAYS KEPT 2 MYSELF N A HOUSE FULL. SEE I'M THE 3RD OLDEST OF 11 N I CAN'T RELATE 2 ANYONE. I DON'T EVEN LOOK LIKE ANYONE I'M THE LIGHTEST CHILD MY MOTHER HAS. YES OUT OF 5 SISTERS N 5 BROTHERS I WAS ALWAYS THE ODD GIRL OUT. REASONS BEING.... A LOT BUT I'll ONLY LIST A FEW.... THEY LOVE 2 FIGHT N ARGUE WITH EACH OTHER, THEY AREN'T VERY FRIENDLY OF COURSE THAT WOULD EXPLAIN THE FIGHTING. WE EVEN SPEAK DIFFERENTLY, THEY HAVE A LOT JEALOUSY ISSUES (THE GIRLS NN 1 BOY), THEY R HIGHLY DISRESPECTFUL 2 ELDERS (MEANING AUNTS, UNCLES, N EVEN STRANGERS). EVERYTIME I HAVE A DISAGREEMENT WITH 1 OF THEM THE RESPONSE I GET IS I THINK I BETTER THEN THEM. I'VE ALWAYS WANTED 2 B CLOSE 2 MY SIBLINGS BUT HOW CAN I WHEN THEY'RE JUST SO CRAZY. I HAVE A 2 YEAR OLD N THEY SAY THE SAME REGARDING HER (I THINK SHE 2 MUCH). THIS IS Y N IT CRAZY.... I DON'T LET HER FIGHT HER COUSINS, LISTEN 2 RAP MUSIC, DANCE SEXY AS OF SHE WAS BORN ON A POLE,CURSE N USE SLANG. MY DAUGHTER IS SPOILED BUT SHE IS ALSO VERY SMART N WELL MANNERED. I NEED SOME HELP WHAT SHOULD I DO BECAUSE I've TRIED TALKING 2 THEM. I DON'T WANT MY CHILD 2 GROW UP AROUND SUCH NONSENSE BUT I ALSO DON'T WANT 2 KEEP HER AWAY FROM FAMILY.