calithin83 Posted March 20, 2004 Share Posted March 20, 2004 la la la 3 days have gone by where I havent seen your face or heard your voice... but im telling myself that its all going to be okay.. im pretending it doesnt matter.. and sometimes i wonder if im in denial... cos i cant deny that i do love u but..i guess that i know i cant hold on ..NO more..no no no... cos u dont love me..and if u did...i wouldnt be here all alone.. so adios... Link to post Share on other sites
Author calithin83 Posted March 20, 2004 Author Share Posted March 20, 2004 i finally put all the bears and pictures all away... im trying to move on without any kind of reminder that may bring me back.. but i cant escape you... because youre alive in my heart.. and with every breath I take..i wish that you were here.. but its too late...too late for you as it is too late for me... i know this is for the best...and i know i have to move on... Link to post Share on other sites
Author calithin83 Posted March 20, 2004 Author Share Posted March 20, 2004 no hug and no kiss will feel like the ones u gave me.... no love can be so real... but...thats why im going to be on my own for now.. i dont want any other boy...i just need to get myself together ... me myself and I....without u by my side.. Link to post Share on other sites
Author calithin83 Posted March 20, 2004 Author Share Posted March 20, 2004 i would cross any mountain to reach u, i would walk all the miles id have to-to see u.. but what is it worth when u dont want me?? I gotta turn away..and walk the oppsite away.. I have to hide from you...and show u that i dont care... I know that by each day that passes I will somehow become stronger...but for some reason will I ever stop loving you??? some part of me tells me NO..cos no matter what I know that somehow u were the one for me... but whats the point of my thinking and feeling..when ure probably doing just fine... u dont love me...or so u said..... and its true..cos if u did uw ouldnt have quit on us.... Link to post Share on other sites
Author calithin83 Posted March 20, 2004 Author Share Posted March 20, 2004 i gave u the love i had never gaven anyone else before... i would do anything jsut to see u smile... but did u do the same?? dont u see the tears u put me through.. dont u see the way i felt when u broke every dream i had with u.. it wasnt okay and u werent there... but how could u understand, when u probably didnt feel the same way.... at night when i close my eyes, its only your face i see... when i dream-its you and me i see- but today- youre not here- i cannot call u and ask u-how are things? I can only wish u the best- and pray to God that youre okay... Its funny how i can still care...its funny how my love is so strong that it wont let me hate u...its funny that im finally willing to let u go and let fate take place.... just know that i love u alot...and maybe it will be forever...or maybe not...but just know that at this point it feels like forever Link to post Share on other sites
from ND Posted March 20, 2004 Share Posted March 20, 2004 i would and DID quit us because she cheated, how can you forgive infidelity? Link to post Share on other sites
Author calithin83 Posted March 20, 2004 Author Share Posted March 20, 2004 i never took u for granted..... every kiss and every hug u gave me brought me a big smile... this u knew...so much that u became too sure of me... u knew that it would break me apart to be far away... u knew what i felt for u jsut by looking into my eyes... but i guess this was my bad...i loved u so much i lost myself.. and i loved u so much that u didnt have the challenge anymore.. and u proably felt that no matter what u did or say..id always be around.... but No babe..i cant no more........ i dont think i can be with u no more..even if u begged.... cos now i see that i shouldnt deal with this at my age.... im too young..and i no longer want to cry... Link to post Share on other sites
Author calithin83 Posted March 20, 2004 Author Share Posted March 20, 2004 did I ever make you cry??? NO! did I Ever make you feel unloved? NO!!! did u ?? Yes..! Link to post Share on other sites
Sundaymorning Posted March 20, 2004 Share Posted March 20, 2004 OMG WHAT IS THIS STUFF? Link to post Share on other sites
Author calithin83 Posted March 20, 2004 Author Share Posted March 20, 2004 "I DONT LOVE YOU" that hurt ...that hurt to hear..that hurt to swallow..when all i ever did was LOVE YOU!!! well forget u then..cos if u cant be with someone who u dont love..NEITHER CAN I BE WITH SOMEONE WHO DOESNT LOVE ME!!!!!!!!! Link to post Share on other sites
Author calithin83 Posted March 20, 2004 Author Share Posted March 20, 2004 why??? why will i cry cos u left me?? why??? No ..Ugh Uh No more... ya u made me cry... and ya u had me begging... but that was then.. and this is NOW.. and guess what?? u aint got me no more... Im out...U gave up well...Now i give up.. i wont be calling u..i wont be emailing u..i wont be any place around... so dont worry.... im walking by.. with a smile.. cos now im free...and u aint got power over me... Link to post Share on other sites
Author calithin83 Posted March 20, 2004 Author Share Posted March 20, 2004 woo hoo IM back to the old me... no one has a hold of my heart and im free to think and do all i want..... I dont need lOvE to make me happy... I dont need a MAn to make me sMile..... Cos theres so much mroe in life then those 2... and guess what... Im walking by..showing off my stuff... cos I had it going on before..but now i got it going on even more... So Damn Baby THank you!!! Link to post Share on other sites
Author calithin83 Posted March 20, 2004 Author Share Posted March 20, 2004 I + J = NOTHING!! ya u got that right...cos its all gone now ...so its J alone now...and I can be I + M , I+t...I dont give!!! but J which stands for my name is better off alone that way.... My love will no longer be for you... My love will be created inside..for my self..and for Jesus Christ... and for all thsoe friends I left... so WhAtEver BAby!..... Link to post Share on other sites
Author calithin83 Posted March 20, 2004 Author Share Posted March 20, 2004 miss me... MISS ME.... MisS me all u want........ but that wont bring me back! Link to post Share on other sites
Author calithin83 Posted March 20, 2004 Author Share Posted March 20, 2004 Its gonna be alright..Oh ya its gonna be alright,...ure not the only one with the pretty blue eyes..ya its gonna be alright...ure not the only one who can kiss me and hold me and touch me and love me..no no no...one day ill find someone who can do that and even more... so lalala its gonna be alright...ya i might cry sometimes cos my heart still aches but i have faith that its gonna be alright ......just day by day second by seciond and sooner or later i will forget... u will be a distant memory ... lalallala rememebr how i used to dance for u...haahhaha rememebr how i used to make u laugh...oohh lalala...remeber baby all the times we made love! it was dreamy wasnt it...but well its all gone..cos obviously it wasnt enough..but thats alright...im still all that! Link to post Share on other sites
from ND Posted March 20, 2004 Share Posted March 20, 2004 cause everytime you say goodbye, i love to watch you close your eyes theres no more pain left inside Link to post Share on other sites
Author calithin83 Posted March 20, 2004 Author Share Posted March 20, 2004 thanxz ND for contributing:)...anyone who wants to express go ahead and write ure words in here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!we are a community!!!!! EXPRESS URESLEF WITH WORDS!!! its the best way to escape the demons inside of the pain of losing someone u love so much!!!! Link to post Share on other sites
Author calithin83 Posted March 20, 2004 Author Share Posted March 20, 2004 Te amo I love you Ye leblu tebya.. those r 3 ways of saying i love u- spanish, english and russian...if i knew more languages i would say them all so u could understand how much i love u! Link to post Share on other sites
from ND Posted March 20, 2004 Share Posted March 20, 2004 cold winter winds that chill my heart come from you to this glacial abode,of all those i have loved, they are not you, id rather be alone...no more nights of blood and fire, well i alwys thought, wed be together and that our love could not be better m, with no warning you were gone, i still dont know, what went wrong Link to post Share on other sites
Author calithin83 Posted March 21, 2004 Author Share Posted March 21, 2004 today i felt like crying when i walked to places we used to walk together.. i tried getting u off my mind..but i cant deny that i love u and miss u.. i feel so sad that i cant call u... i feel so sad to know that maybe u dont care anymore.. i just wish u would come back to me... cos i cant feel good without u... I miss u so much illan Link to post Share on other sites
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