SorrowsSong Posted March 21, 2004 Share Posted March 21, 2004 hi, I am a new person. But Ihave been reading posts and i feel like i am at home. I really thought that it was just me that felt like this, I see how self centered that is, but it is how I felt. I am so happy I stumbled on this site, and know that I am not alone, people have felt the same way. Thank you guys for sharing your stories. My ex and I didn't have a traditional relationship, in fact we never even referred to ourselves as dating. Even though it ended being a turbulent 2 year relationship. We started off as best friends. I knew everything about him, and he knew everything about me. We hung out for no reasons, just to be with each other. Then one day we decided to be each other's first. It created this special connection between us. And even though I never admitted it to myself, I was in love with him then. We got along so well. Then suddenly it stopped being so wonderful. He stopped wanting to be around me alone, and it just went downhill from there. About seven months ago I questioned him on why he stopped wanting to be alone with me, and he said "I don't trust myself around you," and I didn't know what he meant. The last time we made love was in December. And it was nothing like the way it used to be, when he used to hold me afterwards. So I assume that's when all ties were severed. But I was still hopelessly in love. I saw him this year, but on Valentine's day I called but had to leave a message. Then a mutual friend called and let me know that he had a girlfriend. I was crushed. It hurt so bad. I mean it was obvious that it was over between us. The next day he did call back. He told me that our mutual friend told him that I was with a guy so he didn't call on Valentine's day because of that reason. And he explained a few times to me that she was not his girlfriend. We spoke on the phone a few days ago, and he again said she was not his girlfriend on Valentine's day, however they have started dating. It was the closure conversation I thought I wanted, but it's not what I wanted. So again I am here all alone. And I can't stop myself from being so sad. My schoolwork is suffereing, I just can't shake this. All I want to do is sleep and cry and I can't stop the pain. Thank you for listening Link to post Share on other sites
Arabess Posted March 23, 2004 Share Posted March 23, 2004 You are suffering from a good old fashioned broken heart. You are both probably great people, but the end of the relationship has come and you'll have to get through it. Sure, you'll be sad and miss him. It hurts when these things happen. However, it's part of life....and possibly not even your last heartbreak. Do you have good friends to hang out with so you don't feel so lonely? Link to post Share on other sites
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