brneyedgrl Posted January 19, 2011 Share Posted January 19, 2011 I loved how he always opened my car door. I loved that he always came in and kissed me good night when he got home late. I loved the way he was with kids. I loved that he was always interested in what i was up to after work. I loved his 3 "I love you" texts each day. I loved our 1 night a week BBQ's and ice cream runs. I loved that on our 1 night a week that he had off, he got up to hug me when I walked in the door. I will not miss his unwillingness to take more time off work to spend with me. One night off is something he told me would change but a year and a half later, work is still his main priority. I will not miss his not helping me around the house, and after I've cleaned and done his laundry, he walks right in and throws his clothes on the floor like I've done nothing. I will not miss his never buying groceries for us, just snacks for him. I will not miss making our house a home and him not putting any effort in. I will not miss coming home to an empty house every night since it's what I'm used to anyway. I will not miss him going directly to the TV after our dinner dates. I will not miss the lack of intimacy. I will not miss him thinking he is a bad ass when he drives his new car around, it's just a f*ing car! I will not miss his bouts of depression. I will not miss him always talking about things but never doing them. I will not miss him only wanting what he can't have. I will not miss his materialistic ways. I will not miss him not being able to handle stress and pressure. I will not miss his little white lies. I will not miss him pushing me away at times on the mornings I just wanted to cuddle and he wanted to sleep. I will not miss him reminicing about the past but never making plans for the future. I will not miss his insecurities. I will not miss him not knowing what he wants.I will not miss him constantly talking about himself, at times he was a one-upper. I will not miss always wondering if he's going to have a breakdown again and I will once again be left broken hearted, hmm look what happened. These are all things that I knew were flaws and quirks but I accepted them because I loved him. He on the other hand seems to have done some solitary thinking and the issues he had with me aided in his decision to simply give up. We still live together but I've managed to have NC for 5 days. There is truth to the whole NC rule!!! I feel a little more hopeful for what's to come. Link to post Share on other sites
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