Dontknowanymre Posted January 24, 2011 Share Posted January 24, 2011 Right I broke up with my ex in July...breifly il go over it Basicly we were only together for 6 months,and it was the closest I had ever been with anyone before! And we lived quite close aswell! And we hit it off from the start (had known each other a while as I'm friend of her brothers) and just yea after a few months the I love you started etc and I really did! More than anything I felt like this was real love witch I'd never had before when I thaut it had! She said I made her the happiest she had ever been and treated her the best! She said I was her world! And we even discussed a future together! She was coming to end of a uni degree and had lived away from home for 3 years and didn't really want to go back,and I was in the same situation due to my parents moving to another part of the country for work,so we discussed trying living together and just getting a 6 month lease! Any fast forwards about another 2 months we were in July 2010,she started being a bit off with me so we discussed it and she said I was too clingy and didn't give her enough space....yet she was the one who had only just been moaning about she wasn't seeing me as much etc so I said fine tell me what she wants and she will get it,so we went spending as much time together (it was far to easy as we lived so close I'd just nip round etc she would come here) Anyway I thought we were getting back on track she was saying as she had she couldn't be happier etc and we went away for the weekend......got on brillz as usual so I dropped her off Sunday night and was working the Monday,anyway that afternoon we had a silly argument that I did start I suppose bevcuase I was in a ****ty mood....and then it al came out she thought we were suddenly too different etc etc bla bla Anyway I was/am crushed how she could turn just like that...obv I understand she had been thinking is in her head for a few weeks no doubt first...but really hit me hard and still to this day I cant get over this girl! Even though she's made it quite clear she doesn't want me..I sent he some flowers few months back as she was starting a new job...she wouldn't look at me for weeks after and still won't now! We spent the Xmas even just gone in the saw pub just feet away yet again she made no effort to let on and just looked throguh me...then went and started playing pool right in front of me with some of her friends...but like kept coming next to me to shoot etc...so I just walked away...her brother was also there but I could tell she wasn't liking he was talking to me the way she was looking over at him etc...and then he had to go. So whatever! But I don't know why I still love this girl to pieces! My ex and I of 2 years split up (she cheated on me) and I was cut up for a few weeks and moved on...but this time I don't know why I just can't! Shes on my mind everyday at some point more than once! Don't really know what todo anymore! People have said try and speak to her..but she can't/won't even luck at me for whatever reason let alone ever answer an e-mail or txt....witch I can't do anyway because I deleted everything strait away..learnt my lesson keeping fb etc last time just made it worse,so it was the first things to go this time So yea I just don't know....her brother knows how I feel but obv I don't want to make it hard for him so I just bite my lip and he does from time to time mention her and I go one way or the other...ATM I just pretend he's said nawt and get on with it! But recently iv been having dreams about me and her aswel and they are killing me inside they feel so real I wake up expecting her to be next to me etc Our minds can play some very cruel tricks!! This is daft I would even tell myself stop being such a wimp and get over it but iv tried and I can't...I'm seeing someone ATM aswell but that makes it no better if not worse.nothing More than sex really but still Anyway fire away with any advice please folks greatly appreciated Link to post Share on other sites
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