The way i heal

[slinky]

I hope this will help someone it helps me to write them maybe you to read them thanks for support every member I mean that to.

Embrace God, Life, and love. Even if it seems they keep kicking you over.

 

My sleepless nights.

 

I cannot sleep I stay up awake.

I look in the mirror everything seems fake.

Where did it go wrong what did I do.

You say the problem isn't me it is you.

I make you happy but you push me away.

Please open up and let me love you today.

It seems i cannot do anything right in my life.

The girl I love stabbed my heart with a knife.

I cant eat or stop myself from shaking.

What happend to the love we were making.

Is this withdrawl from love I'm feeling.

Tell me what you want my heart needs healing.

The only thing I can do is pray for god.

To remove this feeling of hurt so odd.

Inside I feel like I'm going to die.

But i have to push on and keep hope alive.

-Austin

[Arabess]

What a complete description of what a broken heart feels like!!!

 

Thanks for posting it!

[dlb311]

that is so true. my boyfriend broke up with me for the 2nd time Monday night. we were together for 2 years broke up because he said he wasn't sure anymore. But really he was scared of commitment and he later admitted it to me. Four months later we got back together things we so good again. Then something happened and he started pushing me away I thought I was just over reacting because when I brought it up to him he said he doesn't understand what I am saying. So I thought it was my own insecurities because we had broken up before but he has never tried to make me feel secure Since. Well things were good but I felt his distance I would try to talk to him but he just would blow it off like I was talking out of my a*& or something. But then I hadn't seen him for a week. And when he came home because he was working far away for the week. He didn't want to see me. Well he asked to see me but when the time came for me to come over he said he was going for a run. I was like what.. something is up. So I finally said this relationship can't only be on your terms relationships are about communicationa nd compromise. And he said he isn't sure anymore he wants this he loves me and me being his girlfriend and and loves spending time with me but isn't ready for this commitment thing yet. well he was totally commited to me for two years. seriously he asked me to marry him when he got his career going and we were to move in together this past September and we talked about where to buy a house and raise our children. Then when it came time for it he bailed. I didn't understand at all...

Then we got back and decided we were going to give 100% and make it work but when the passion of love settled in and life started to remind us that things aren't always perfect he bailed again. Saying he was sure 100% sure I was the one the he isn't anymore. So I said fine and said good bye and hung up I knew it was over it is it hurts but I don't want him back. I just have to grieve and let it out so that I can love again. I deserve someone who wants me all the time not just when they feel they want me around. he is way into being with friends which isn't a bad thing but they keep telling him he is to young. and he kept telling me he is so young.. I was like whatever... he is 24 he is young but when you love someone and know you have found that one person why can't you be with them. I wasn't in a hurry for a ring or anything I just wanted to spend my life with him at the pace that was comfortable for both of us. But he gave up instead of trying to work things out.

Like you said They said you make them so happy but yet they push you away.. they are so scared of letting it go and just loving you. Maybe they are scared if they let you in that close they will get hurt.. he said he thought of the future and it scared him. so maybe he knew this girl me and her we fit we make it work but oh that is so scary.... and do I really want to work at this? I don't know all I know is that I have to move on. Don't let people step all over you. if they do it once they will do it again. Sometimes you have to take that chance and see but never give a third or fourth chance just because you love someone so much doesn't mean they are willing to make it work with you. both people have to give 100% if they don't it wont work...

Love is so great but it blinds us like nothing else I thought this guy was perfect....I never wanted to change anything about him. But now I don't ever want to talk to him or see him again. I am done

good luck to you all who are hurting but remember if you let it go you will find something better I have hope....