She never thought I liked her...

[BringThaNoise]

Heres the entire story. Its's been about 2 months since it ended. I'm 17 by the way:

 

So school starts and a few weeks in I meet this girl and we became good friends. She was pretty flirtatious with me, but shes like that with a lot of people. Shes pretty outgoing and I thought nothing of it at the time. Then we started to hang out more and I really began to like her. I planned to ask her out a bunch of times, but a lot of stuff came up. Like my grandpa died early into the school year and there was some family drama with my parents and I didn't want to drag her into that. I knew she was worth the wait. I mean she REALLY liked me. Like she ditched her homecoming date to hang out with me and there was a lot of other times we hung out and I never really made a move on her because of what was happening with me at the time. The one time I should've asked her out I didn't and I heard about in school the next week from her friends. Like they thought I was just dragging her around and **** because it had been 2 months and I never asked her out. Like her last boyfriend treated her badly. I mean he cheated on her and he took her for granted. Two weeks later, all my family drama settled and I took her out and I asked her out at the end of the day. At first, she turned me down because she didn't expect me to ask her out. She thought I saw her as more of a friend. So the next few days I just left her alone and out of the blue she comes over to talk to me, so I hear her out. She broke down in tears holding me. She told me that she needs me and that she wants me in her life so we began going out.

 

So the day she comes over I learned that I had to get a blood test done for a potential health problem. I mean at the time, I didn't tell her yet because she gets stressed easily and I didn't want her to worry. I had a lot of stuff to do for that test and I didn't really talk to her that entire weekend. I didn't treat her like ****. I just didn't treat her like my girlfriend. Like I didn't really lead during that week because of all the **** happenening. The day before I was going to explain everything she ended it and at that point I thought it was too late. Like she thought I was pretending to like her because that's how she was treated in the past.

 

I did all the wrong things at first when it ended, the usual mistakes. I've never really wanted another chance with a girl before and the situation got the better of me. Like I knew she didn't really want to break up with me because she did it on an impulse. I just got a text message out of nowhere and she said it wasn't working out. Normally, I'd say that'd be a deal breaker to win her back, but she never thought I was serious about our relationship. Like we were only oficially dating for a week and she thought I was just pretending to like her. I mean a day after she texted me a random question and we began talking and eventually it led up to me asking for another chance, but she just thought I was playing a game with her. A week later I talked to her face to face and told her that she meant a lot to me and I apologized for making her feel unwanted and sh seemed like she was willing to give it another chance, but she was a little apprehensive. I mean I guess her past just gets in the way of her trusting people. Before people probably built her up with their words only to let her fall again and again and so when I tell her what she means to me she thinks I'm not serious.

 

Really, our relationship began with uncertainty. Like she didn't think I liked her when I asked her out and I never expected her to turn me down. We weren't really on the same page and the timing was off. We didn't really know what the other wanted how to act around one another and it got to a point where it seemed like our relationship was never real, like it was an act. I mean it was like we were still friends, not dating. She ended it because she never thought I liked her, but she told me she never stopped liking me. She's had relationship problems before and me not really acting like we had something reopened some old wounds. But the thing is, if I would've asked her out earlier and not have waited for my family drama to die down, she would've said yes. Like when whe turned me down at first, she said if it would've been sooner she would've have definitely said yes, but she must have thought I was worth all of that waiting because she came around. And when we were together, I think she thought I just asked her out because that's what everyone wanted because I pretty much still treated her like my friend. I didn't take our relationship to the next level. She thought it was an act, but it wasn't. I was just in a rough spot at the time.

 

I've kept no contact for about 2 weeks now and I want to make a final attempt to talk to her because I've never told her the entire story. I mean I tend to deal with stress differently. Like I tend to quietly internalize things and I never told her everything at the time because our relationship had just started and because I've never told her, there's been a lot of misunderstandings. She thought I was messing her and that I was pretending to like her, but it never was that. I was always crazy for her, but at the time, my life wasn't on the right track. Before I was emotionally unavailable to talk to her, but now that the drama has died down, I know what I want to tell her. Should I try to talk to her one last time?