"I am pissed off"

[chris1987]

Ok well my gf move out on valentines day. I had no idea that she was till I came home to and empty house. Any way after a talk she said she wanted to start over again. Like dating and work our way back to wear we were and no sex no real kissing no nothing. Say she wants to focus on her schooling right now. She has only 3 online classes. Only wants go out once or twice a week. she doesn’t talk to me as much as I feel much she should. She gets mad at me for being down in the dumps because of all this rejection. I feel like I was dumped even though she hasn’t dumped me.

Sorry but I am pissed off because if she wanted to focus on her schooling she would be work 40 hours a week plus more or 40 more hours a week taking care of her bosses kid and then going out with her friends the rest of the time I have done nothing but try to make her feel loved but I myself don’t feel loved. I my mind she is punishing me for my past wrongs. I never cheat I was always loyal I am just and a*sho:e sometimes but I think most men are that way at times.

I don’t want to throw 6 years away but I feel like I am hitting a breaking point. Getting ready to surrender. Just can’t go on like this I am a emotional train wreck. Started smoking again but this time like a train. I started drinking which I haven’t done before ever. I just don’t know what to do. Should I give up. Move on or try to make this work?

I want it to work but I feel like this is a game. I am thinking about going in to nc. Maybe she wouldn't be like this and grow up.