Just had to give update

[pinkroses]

I talked to my ex today after work, it's been 3 months since I've seen him in person. I was really nervous, but it went so much better than expected. I thought he'd gotten back together with his crazy ex but he hasn't. She has a new boyfriend, and he's just made peace with her and is just friends with her now. He was happy, and said, as he'd mentioned in a previous e-mail, that he is making a lot of improvements in his life. At first it angered me that he was improving himself and happier without me, but he needed to be on his own to work through things. I thought he would have been standoffish with me seeing me again but he wasn't. He admitted he still thinks of me and has wanted to call but didn't think he should.

 

I have no intentions of letting anything happen again, I was hurt too much and my heart closed off for good. I still have some feeling for him, but not for anything more than friendship anymore. He said he doesn't know if he can just be friends with me, that's why he hasn't called, he still fantasizes about me. It's flattering he's still thinking of me, even though it's only in the physical sense, but I know that's all there was between us, all there ever would be, and of course, that is not enough for me for a relationship.

 

I hope I wasn't too friendly or forgiving today, but I guess I am happier being at peace with someone rather than holding on to anger and punishing someone. I just had to write to someone about this, I feel so relieved, and so much better about myself and about him.

[capitald]

I am glad to hear that you were able to forgive today, now at least you can move on even if it will not be with him, without forgiveness you wouldn't be able to move on.

[jenny]

o! hey pinkroses - glad to hear you are doing well...it takes a lot of strength to move on -

[sinkerswim]

Hi Pink...

Im glad this happened for you. It gives me some hope for my future.