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I have been smoking since..i was 13 or 14. Although I wasnt a heavy smoker, my friends always had cigarettes (reds) and we would smoke whenever we could. When i got to college, smoking was even worse. Ironically enough most of my classmates were pre-med..we would chain smoke between classes and there i developed smokers cough.

I began drinking a lot back then too, I would drink from Mon-Sat..since my mom sees me almost every day I would pretend to not be drunk. I think I played it well.

But these arent my problems. I easily gave up smoking like 1-2 years ago, I don't drink unless I absolutely have to (I think i have developed an allergy to it "sulfites"). The one thing I have a hard time quitting now is my video game addiction, I have been playing for like 6 years and I just cant stop. It has not affected my college life much and then when i started to work/go training I still managed to fit a lil bit of playing in between. Friends would invite me out and I always say no, saying im busy and I have errands..eventually they stopped inviting me.

Everything seems to be a really big BORE to me, jokes..hanging out with friends, sleepovers..my mind would wander.I dont wanna go clubbing, drinking out is boring to me, everything just seems so boring..I feel like my senses are used to something that "real life" cant offer.

I have heard from male friends and other males in my game that their gf's forbid them from playing, or they usually stop playing for a while and then come back, or they eventually break up. I for one was not in a relationship for a very long time because of..yes..I was busy on my computer.

Everytime I read a sad story about a couple splitting up due to some guys uncontrollable gaming I would think..thank heavens i am not like that.. i dont play 20 hours a day..at least i dont think i do. 5-6 hrs a day is enough i think (at least for weekdays).

Whats really bothersome is that my mind really does tend to wander..and when i am not playing its all i can ever think about.

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