Infatuation, how long does it last?

[ThatOnePerson]

I thought I loved this girl, but today, I realized I was infatuated. Kind of depressing, because I told her I loved her.

 

I know what infatuation is. It's obsessing over the other person, when not talking to them drives you crazy. The constant feeling of panic at the back of your head. Jealousy. It's just chemicals.

 

I realize that this behavior is not healthy, but rather immature and foolish. But don't get me wrong, I feel as if I do have genuine feelings for her. I've been like this for around 2 months, only realizing today that I'm merely going through some kind of phase, which is often mistaken for love.

 

However, deep inside, I know I actually do want the best for her. I want her to meet new people, I want her to be happy. I really do care about her, for who she is, and not the false "perfect" image that infatuation shows us. She isn't perfect, I know, but I am still accepting of her, and I'm willing to wait for her, whatever stress I may go through. As I mentioned, I feel as if I really do have genuine feelings. However, infatuation sometimes seems to overpower me, and I am not able to control my emotions. These feelings of jealousy and agony seem really fake, just my brain fooling me into more depression.

 

I want to move on from this stage. I know I can't force it, but I feel as if a slight part of me KNOWS I'm actually in love. Just, at times.. these foolish "chemicals" get the best of me.

 

Any tips on how to overpower infatuation? I really can't let the jealousy and agony control me for any longer. I have realized I've been some what of a puppet to my emotions, and I need to fix it.