I have taken all my anger at my xMM today

[issohard]

My feeling has changed. From loving someone I hate him. I have coused him loads of hassle today. For some reasons it made feel really great and I was taking a pleasure from what I was doing. I caused him loads of trouble related to one matter today to make him understand that I need to get internally transferred. I have asked him so many times that don't want to work for the same division with him. On his position and with his contacts this should be an easy job for him but he is so selfish and he won't do it cos he knows I am the big value to the company. I made this clear to him that if he will not transfer me in a good will I will force him so he will get sick of me and transfer me eventually.

I insult him so much but he never said anything back to me.

I could not help myself later on and forwarded him a copy of our e-mail conversation when we were together and let him know that I will not hesitate to forward it to his wife if I don't get a transferred.

For me it would be hard to leaving the company as I have loads benefits to loose so why should I pay for this and he can get away with this.

At one point he said sth when we were disputing about one thinks at work: you can't give in and then take it back. I responded: I wish you could hear what u r saying meaning sth else obviously and that made me feel cry.

I hate him... Is this a normal to have so much anger and hate for someone u used to love like nothing else. Why does it make me feel so good knowing I couse him pain. Why I want to see him suffer?

Let's see how the story will end. I hope he will finally understand that I will not hesitate.

I feel so relieved today ....

[whichwayisup]

Keep in mind the more you mess with him, he's eventually going to get pissed off and mess in YOUR life. Professionally and personally. He can make YOUR life just as miserable, ruin your reputation, so becareful how far you take this anger of revenge out on him.

[fooled once]

My feeling has changed. From loving someone I hate him. I have coused him loads of hassle today. For some reasons it made feel really great and I was taking a pleasure from what I was doing. I caused him loads of trouble related to one matter today to make him understand that I need to get internally transferred. I have asked him so many times that don't want to work for the same division with him. On his position and with his contacts this should be an easy job for him but he is so selfish and he won't do it cos he knows I am the big value to the company. I made this clear to him that if he will not transfer me in a good will I will force him so he will get sick of me and transfer me eventually.

I insult him so much but he never said anything back to me.

I could not help myself later on and forwarded him a copy of our e-mail conversation when we were together and let him know that I will not hesitate to forward it to his wife if I don't get a transferred.

For me it would be hard to leaving the company as I have loads benefits to loose so why should I pay for this and he can get away with this.

At one point he said sth when we were disputing about one thinks at work: you can't give in and then take it back. I responded: I wish you could hear what u r saying meaning sth else obviously and that made me feel cry.

I hate him... Is this a normal to have so much anger and hate for someone u used to love like nothing else. Why does it make me feel so good knowing I couse him pain. Why I want to see him suffer?

Let's see how the story will end. I hope he will finally understand that I will not hesitate.

I feel so relieved today ....

 

I understand you are hurting. But remember, you voluntarily had an affair with him. You chose to do that. You are not a victim. You are someone whose relationship ended. Life goes on. Be very careful about how far you push him at work; from the sounds of it, he could easily have you fired for cause (insubordination) and you won't have a leg to stand on because of the affair. Again, you voluntarily chose that and by you not keeping your work life professional, he can make you look deranged and blackball you. He will just tell his wife "look at this crazy b*tch; let me tell you what she has been doing at work and now she is trying to blackmail me with you". You know OW are thrown under the bus. Don't give him or the company any reason to have you removed.

 

Keep in mind the more you mess with him, he's eventually going to get pissed off and mess in YOUR life. Professionally and personally. He can make YOUR life just as miserable, ruin your reputation, so becareful how far you take this anger of revenge out on him.

 

 

Yep