Bleh...... Dating.

[DontWorryBHappy]

So recently I met a guy who had been in a couple of my university classes. We got to talking and immediately hit it off. We seemed to have the same way of thinking about many things including values, beliefs, views on relationships, and a bunch of other stuff. We talked for several hours the first time and loved the conversation. The next day we met up and talked again, and once again it was a great time for several hours, there was never an awkward moment, etc. A couple days passed after that and we met up once again.. but this time it was very different. He was acting really goofy, silly, and hyper. Normally that can be really fun, but he was sort of skipping around and singing to himself and not really noticing that I didn't really know how to join in, because I just wasn't that hyper.. lol. He also tends to go on lots of tangents when he talks (I noticed this a bit the other times we talked, but because we were both so involved in the particular subject matter it wasnt as bothersome). Basically, he would talk for several minutes without a break, and often without looking at me, while failing to notice that I was getting a bit lost and my attention was wavering. See, I always make an effort to be really attentive toward people but when someone is just talking and talking and it seems that they wouldnt really notice if I stopped paying attention, it gets a bit weird for me.

 

We also didn't seem to have too much to talk about - I guess we talked so much about really serious life subjects the other times that when it came time to have more normal conversation, we couldn't think of much to say. There were definitely some awkward moments. But anyway, we got back to my place because he was dropping me off there. And we decided to put on some music and dance for a bit outside. The dancing was really nice, and the music was nice, and he ended up kissing me (something that we talked about maybe trying... he was really open about talking about kissing). Only problem was that our kissing styles seemed really different... I tried to kiss the way I normally do but he used a ton of tongue in a way that felt a bit invasive, which kind of freaked me out. But aside from that, I also didnt really know what to think about the fact that we were kissing because it didn't seem like we had the same connection earlier when we were talking. So it kind of seemed like we were just kissing because there was slow music, and dancing, and that kind of thing. I thought to myself that based on our conversation earlier we probably would not have kissed without the slow dancing... but I dont know. That realization made me say a few awkward things after we kissed, but he kind of pushed me to say them, because he could tell I was thinking.

 

Today he texted me and asked how I felt about the night. I said I wasnt sure, but that he's an awesome and genuine person, and asked him the same question. He said he had a great time, but it was a little fast. Said he wanted to be friends first because in the past he moved fast with girls and it didn't work out. I agreed, and told him I was glad to have met him, regardless of what we turn out to be. But now I'm somehow a little sad, at the fact that at first we seemed to have a great connection and then it kind of got a bit weird somehow. And who knows if we will actually even hang out as friends. Bleh.

Edited May 13, 2011 by DontWorryBHappy