ConflictedGirl Posted May 22, 2011 Share Posted May 22, 2011 say you have an ex and ur relationship has been over going on its 3rd month...and while you were in this relationship you suspected your ex and a "close friend" of both of you were involved..but u suppressed it cause u didnt want to have to deal with it or u didnt believe 2 people close to you could betray you like that...say you never said a word about it although signs were there and now almost 3 months after these thoughts still havent left your brain..say when you and ur ex split u found a reason to cut off the friend also because she made you think of you ex and u were trying to move on, also she secretly made you sick although u acted like u were close friends...say u have thoughts of the 2 of them laughing at you & plotting how they were gonna do this...say you have thoughts about how this was planned way before they became close to you and that they were never genuine...say you trusted(loosely termed) them and they were ****ing behind your back..say you still have thoughts about how you knew but pretended you had no idea...about how they probably think your so stupid...say you remember back to lil things that make it even more obvious they were sleeping together...say you look back and realize that your ex basically said it to your face on multiple occasions but you chose to ignore it...say 2 months of being completely silent and trying to pretend you dont care is beginning to eat away at you..say you havent spoken to either of em...say you thought u were so close to being completely over it but every time you are on a social website and see her name you cringe...not because you want him back or even care about the demise of the relationship but because you feel so betrayed by them and everyone who knew and probably laughed...even by yourself because you knew deep down say you almost hate yourself because you never even wanted your ex but allowed yourself to get so intoxicated that he tried to take advantage of you and you didnt want to feel guilty about what had happened so u forced urself into a rebound relationship so you could fool yourself, your mother and everyone else into thinking u were "happy" and that u didnt just make the biggest mistake ever. say you faked it till u made it and he builds some of your trust...say you are sitting here 2months+ after a deep betrayal that u have yet to properly vent about for fear of actually having to feel these emotions...say no1 knows that u care...say they probably still believe you have no idea...say you have no closure on this situation and thought ignoring it would make it go away... say u want to know the truth for sure...is it wrong for me to seek out whether they really were doing this to put my mind to rest or since its already been 2+ months i should leave it alone...all done in the dark comes to light id hate to b 5 months+ n then have it confirmed..if i ask a source without going to either of them directly will it help or hurt my growth of 2 months nc? Link to post Share on other sites
Flgirl44 Posted May 22, 2011 Share Posted May 22, 2011 I wouldn't bring it up. Best to let a sleeping dog lie. Link to post Share on other sites
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