Don't really know how to explain current state.

[beautifulearth83]

Hello All, I hope you are well.

 

I'm at a strange place in my life. It actually feels like a good place to an extent

because it is in a way a clean slate.

 

The thing is that lately I just feel emotionally numb. I've been told that I'm depressed, but I don't feel depressed. I just feel like I just am. I'm mostly in my head and body, just kind of going with the flow, but there is an imbalance.

 

I feel a bit warped, like I have a piece missing. There are times where I have more feeling on the right side of my head that the left, visa versa. I don't feel whole.

 

I suspect it has something to do with loneliness. This past 2 years, I went from having zillions of friends, 3 jobs, playing shows, going on adventures to living alone with a girlfriend that worked 12 hours a day, to being single with no social life, working from home.

 

Lately I just don't feel like I have a soul or the sensitivities that I used to. There are times in my life where I could cry looking at a tree sway or thinking about how much I love my family. But lately everything feels very technical. Wake up, go to sleep, work, visit family, etc.

 

In fact, I suppose that I feel much more left-brained these days, when I've often proved myself to be a creative person. I don't feel I have an imagination lately. I don't feel that I have dreams or a top-secret plan to take over the world.

 

I kind of feel like a walking recliner.

 

The imbalance I feel is what concerns me the most. It's almost as if I feel like I need to grasp something or simply put my arm around somebody.

 

Can anybody relate, offer an insight?

 

I always appreciate your input on here and I'm glad that I'm able to ask.

 

~ beautifulearth83

[whichwayisup]

You sound like you need to be mentally stimulated by people, have conversations and laugh to make you feel alive and have that ZING for life.

 

It does seem like mild depression and being lonely..

 

. There are times where I have more feeling on the right side of my head that the left, visa versa. I don't feel whole.

 

I would start by seeing your family Dr and making sure your health is good.

[beautifulearth83]

whichwayisup: Thank you kindly for your response.