sinkerswim Posted April 15, 2004 Share Posted April 15, 2004 I am having a bad day...All I keep thinking of is our memories.. I keep thinking how much passion he had for me 3 weeks previous to this. I keep thinking of the vacation we were supposed to take in September. This pain of not having him is terrible. I miss his touch. I try to go on...but then something always sets me back. I ended up seeing him driving 4 cars in front of me yesterday. I knew it was him and thats what killed me... It was him and my heart was pounding and my legs were shaky. All I wanted to do was to catch up to him and beep and wave. But then I got extremely nervous.. that wouldnt have been the right thing to do. He would have thought I was following him probably. Its sad that he was right in front of me and I could do NOTHING about it. I saw his favorite jacket he wears and his hat. It was him alright. First time I caught a glimpse of him since Feb.3 Now ... I cant get that out of my head. This is just not fair. Sometimes I feel like I want to lay down and just die. Im sorry..I just cant take it sometimes. Link to post Share on other sites
hurtingandconfused Posted April 15, 2004 Share Posted April 15, 2004 It's ok... It happens to the best of us. I just hope that you get better soon. I know that feeling and I promise you that the feeling will go away. Some advice from an experienced broken heart is: Don't dwell on the past so much. Try not to think of it, when you do catch yourself and distract your thinking by doing something else. Don't watch TV don't listen to music. Go out and do things. Link to post Share on other sites
freebird Posted April 15, 2004 Share Posted April 15, 2004 I feel the pain - been there done that! But, and I heard this arbitrary sentence while I was drifting off from a preview for a movie...someone screamed out: "DON'T LET YOUR MEMORIES KILL YOU!" Peace... Link to post Share on other sites
Author sinkerswim Posted April 15, 2004 Author Share Posted April 15, 2004 Thanks you guys...yes the memories ARE killing me. I dont mean to be so whiny..but it does get unbearable at times...to the point of frustration or something. Like..you dont know where to put yourself. its torture coming home from work and trying to plan for the night without him. Again..thanks..I just need people to talk to. Its great coming here. Link to post Share on other sites
hurtingandconfused Posted April 15, 2004 Share Posted April 15, 2004 "DON'T LET YOUR MEMORIES KILL YOU!"- The punisher Link to post Share on other sites
Girlie Posted April 15, 2004 Share Posted April 15, 2004 I'm sorry, babe. Hang in there. I remember going through what you are. I guess the good news is that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. But the memories of what used to be can be haunting at times. Link to post Share on other sites
freebird Posted April 15, 2004 Share Posted April 15, 2004 Hurting - you are good ! I was falling asleep and just heard someone on the tube yell that out - HOW IRONIC you guys - look at the quote Hurting just typed out that I mentioned earlier about "don't let your memories kill you" funny enough the movie is "The PUnisher"!! Yep, I think we are punish are selves with our painful memories! Just know we've all been there and we're with ya kiddo! Take care...the pain will pass...I promise. Link to post Share on other sites
Author sinkerswim Posted April 16, 2004 Author Share Posted April 16, 2004 Thanks again you guys..sometimes I just need a pep talk. Link to post Share on other sites
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